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    (5 Reasons) Why You Might Miss Your Abusive Ex

    Perplexing Paradox: Missing an Abusive Ex

    Experiencing longing for an abusive ex-partner can be a bewildering and distressing feeling. We've all been taught that we should avoid anything that brings us harm. Therefore, it might seem paradoxical, even to ourselves, to miss someone who has caused us emotional or physical damage. Yet, such emotions are more common than one might expect, and they do not indicate a weakness or failure on your part. This article will guide you through the complex emotional landscape that fuels these feelings and provide suggestions to help you navigate this challenging phase of recovery.

    It's crucial to remember that healing from abusive relationships is not a linear process; it's an emotional rollercoaster filled with peaks and troughs. At times, you might find yourself missing your ex-partner despite the abuse, a sentiment that could be confusing and guilt-inducing. To grapple with these feelings, you must first understand them. We'll be delving into the complexities of this issue, exploring five reasons why you might miss your abusive ex-partner.

    Please note that this content may contain triggering topics for some individuals, and the advice given should not replace professional help. If you're struggling, please reach out to a licensed therapist or counselor.

    Unpacking the Emotional Suitcase – The Five Reasons

    1. Trauma Bonding: of 'trauma bonding' is a central pillar to understand why one might miss an abusive partner. In a toxic relationship, the abuser often employs a cycle of abuse and kindness. This intermittent positive reinforcement creates an intense bond between the victim and the abuser, making it difficult to break free from the relationship even when it's detrimental to the victim's wellbeing.

    2. Stockholm Syndrome: a bank robbery in Stockholm where hostages developed a psychological alliance with their captors, Stockholm Syndrome can also manifest in abusive relationships. This psychological phenomenon might lead the abused individual to develop feelings of trust or affection towards the abuser, further complicating the emotional terrain.

    3. Fear of Change and Loneliness: often daunting, and leaving an abusive relationship, despite its toxicity, is a significant change. The fear of loneliness, starting anew, or even the fear of never finding someone else can intensify feelings of missing an ex-partner, even an abusive one.

    4. Identity Loss: relationships, the victim often loses their sense of self. You might have spent so much time adapting to your ex's needs and moods that you've forgotten who you are outside the relationship. The struggle of rediscovering one's identity can lead to feelings of missing the abusive ex, simply because the relationship defined your existence for a period.

    5. Nostalgia and Selective Memory: are often biased towards recalling positive memories over negative ones. This tendency might lead you to remember the good times you shared with your ex-partner, overshadowing the abusive episodes.

    Delving Deeper into the Reasons – The Psychology Behind the Paradox

    Trauma Bonding and Stockholm Syndrome: These two phenomena are interconnected and can be considered two sides of the same coin. Both lead to the formation of strong emotional attachments between the abuser and the victim. The inconsistency of an abuser's actions—alternating between periods of abuse and periods of kindness—creates a psychological pattern akin to addiction. The victim, much like a gambler at a slot machine, continues to endure the abuse in hopes of those rare moments of kindness. This "intermittent reinforcement" can lead to trauma bonding, making it hard for victims to break free even after the relationship has ended.

    Similar to trauma bonding, Stockholm Syndrome also stems from an abusive dynamic, leading the victim to empathize with, and even defend, their abuser. It's a survival mechanism that kicks in when a person feels threatened and perceives their abuser as having absolute control. The abused person may start to see the abuser's perspective and view any small act of kindness as an exaggerated positive trait, contributing to the feelings of missing the abusive ex.

    Fear of Change and Loneliness: The prospect of loneliness or the uncertainty of change can be terrifying. It's often said that humans prefer the devil they know to the devil they don't. The known, albeit abusive, relationship might feel safer than the unknown future, causing you to miss the certainty that the relationship provided, no matter how dysfunctional.

    Identity Loss: During an abusive relationship, victims often undergo a gradual erosion of self. Abusers frequently use tactics like gaslighting to keep their victims off-balance and make them doubt their perception of reality. When the relationship ends, you may feel lost without the abusive partner, simply because you've come to view yourself through their lens. You may miss your ex because, in a twisted way, they were a significant part of your identity.

    Nostalgia and Selective Memory: Human memory is prone to biases, one of which is the reminiscence bump—the propensity to recall positive memories over negative ones. This cognitive bias may lead you to remember the good times over the painful ones, causing you to miss your abusive ex. The influence of selective memory can't be underestimated in understanding why you might miss your abusive ex.

    Finding Your Way Through The Emotional Maze – Coping Mechanisms

    Understanding the underlying reasons of why you miss your abusive ex is a step towards healing, but knowing alone isn't enough. It's essential to actively work on coping strategies that will help you navigate these complex emotions.

    1. Seek Professional Help: a valuable tool in the healing process. It can provide you with a safe space to express your feelings and learn effective coping strategies. Consider seeking help from a licensed professional who specializes in trauma and recovery from abusive relationships.

    2. Maintain No Contact: crucial to create a distance between you and your abusive ex-partner. This means no calls, texts, or interactions on social media. Maintaining no contact can give you the time and space you need to heal.

    3. Practice Self-Care: Self-care involves taking care of your physical, emotional, and mental health. This can involve various activities, from engaging in physical exercise to reading a good book or practicing mindfulness.

    4. Rebuild Your Identity: you are outside of the relationship can be a beautiful journey of self-exploration. Spend time with yourself, explore your interests, and rebuild your self-esteem.

    5. Lean on Your Support System: support system can provide a soft place to land during your healing process. Friends, family, or support groups for survivors of abusive relationships can provide understanding and encouragement during challenging times.

    We've examined why one might miss an abusive ex and provided some ways to manage these feelings. While it may seem disheartening that such emotions persist, it's important to remember that they're a normal part of the healing process. It's okay to miss your ex, but don't let this longing hold you back from your journey towards healing and rediscovering your strength.


    1. Bancroft, L. (2002). Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men. Berkley Books.
    2. Herman, J. L. (1997). Trauma and Recovery: The Aftermath of Violence – From Domestic Abuse to Political Terror. Basic Books.
    3. Walker, P. (2013). Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving. Azure Coyote Publishing.
    4. The National Domestic Violence Hotline

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