OH NO I DID IT AGAIN

diamondangel777 · 11-01-2004, 12:20 PM

Hi everyone....i dont even want to say this, but i know i need too, i know it will only help. But i saw Mike yesterday (Sunday) and on Saturday. i know it is only going to make things worse and harder for me to let go, but for some reason i just needed to see him.

He was nice, what i expected...he usually is when a time like this comes, but the question is how long will it last. I spoke with my councelor and she is giving me some help on how to be strong when he calls and not to see him no matter what...so i just have to remember this.

The sad thing now is that i am starting to feel sorry for him, and i know i shouldn't because when that happens my defenses go down and i let him back in...full force. i want to be strong about this, i need to be...i want my life back.

I just needed to write this..and vent i need some help and advice just some motivation from people who have been there...and know some things...anything will help right about now...please i dont want to go back..i am scared but just not strong enough to say no

Liv

catgirl82 · 11-01-2004, 01:29 PM

you can be strong. i read your other posts, and you seem to have that strength inside of you, it just waivers sometimes, which i think is normal. you are just getting out of a serious relationship- and no matter how bad it was, ending such a huge part of your life is difficult. its not easy for anybody to let go. you need to just keep talking to your therapist, your friends, your family, and us on this website. you know, deep down that leaving this guy is for the best. dont feel guilty about your weak moments. just try your absolute hardest not to slip back into your old habits. no matter WHAT, nobody has a right to treat you the way this guy did. you seem like a wonderful girl and you dont deserve to be name called, controlled, and worst of all, physically abused. i am sure there are other support groups out there for you, for victims of abuse which also might help you when youre feeling weak, etc. you can pm me anytime. stay strong!! you ARE strong enough to say no, because youve already done it

11-01-2004, 12:20 PM	#1
diamondangel777 Offline Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: New York Posts: 10	OH NO I DID IT AGAIN Hi everyone....i dont even want to say this, but i know i need too, i know it will only help. But i saw Mike yesterday (Sunday) and on Saturday. i know it is only going to make things worse and harder for me to let go, but for some reason i just needed to see him. He was nice, what i expected...he usually is when a time like this comes, but the question is how long will it last. I spoke with my councelor and she is giving me some help on how to be strong when he calls and not to see him no matter what...so i just have to remember this. The sad thing now is that i am starting to feel sorry for him, and i know i shouldn't because when that happens my defenses go down and i let him back in...full force. i want to be strong about this, i need to be...i want my life back. I just needed to write this..and vent i need some help and advice just some motivation from people who have been there...and know some things...anything will help right about now...please i dont want to go back..i am scared but just not strong enough to say no Liv __________________ Make A WishTake A ChanceMake A ChangeAnd BREAKAWAY Im An Emotional Girl-I Can't Help Myself-Sometimes I Laugh-Some Times I Cry-Sometimes I Do Both And I Don't Know Why.... Actions Speak LOUDER Than Words <Write That Down>

11-01-2004, 01:29 PM	#2
catgirl82 Offline Bronze Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: philly, pa Posts: 405	you can be strong. i read your other posts, and you seem to have that strength inside of you, it just waivers sometimes, which i think is normal. you are just getting out of a serious relationship- and no matter how bad it was, ending such a huge part of your life is difficult. its not easy for anybody to let go. you need to just keep talking to your therapist, your friends, your family, and us on this website. you know, deep down that leaving this guy is for the best. dont feel guilty about your weak moments. just try your absolute hardest not to slip back into your old habits. no matter WHAT, nobody has a right to treat you the way this guy did. you seem like a wonderful girl and you dont deserve to be name called, controlled, and worst of all, physically abused. i am sure there are other support groups out there for you, for victims of abuse which also might help you when youre feeling weak, etc. you can pm me anytime. stay strong!! you ARE strong enough to say no, because youve already done it