I want to be physically hurt.

EmptySoul · 08-11-2004, 06:29 PM

Hello. For a while now, I've been wanting to be hurt physically. I self-injure and you think destruction to my body on my part would be enough, but I don't know... I've even had a dream about it a while back and I'm thinking about it more and more. I don't want it to come from a family member, but I want it to be a male. I don't understand why I want this and I can't recall hearing anyone else talk about something like this. Does anyone have any ideas? Have you heard of something like this before?

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Dezeard · 08-11-2004, 06:33 PM

This is serious. I think you should seek some pro help right away! This could lead to things like murder or even worse. Stuff like this isn't a good place to bring here, you need to talk to someone.

ang3l2004 · 08-11-2004, 06:34 PM

Were you abused growing up?Father brother any type of male whatsoever?pm me anytime

i_hate_the_world47 · 08-11-2004, 06:52 PM

Emptysoul,
I know how you feel.After induring years of abuse from my step father,i becme accistomed to abuse.But i know its not right.I thyink you should speak to your parents about this.If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.

~Meagan~

EmptySoul · 08-11-2004, 07:02 PM

I've started seeing a counselor recently, so hopefully I will be able to get her advice on this soon. The strange thing is, I have never really been abused. (i know many who self-injure have been.) my father has anger problems and sometimes yells or breaks things but never touches me...

Empty

i_hate_the_world47 · 08-11-2004, 07:07 PM

emptysoul,
Has anyone that you know ever been abused.Maybe a friend or something.That may also be a factor.Seeing this counselor may help.Good luck.

~Meagan~

EmptySoul · 08-11-2004, 07:09 PM

No one I know has been abused, with the exception of other self-injurers I talk to online.

Empty

i_hate_the_world47 · 08-11-2004, 07:16 PM

well then maye this is just a phase.With alittle help like counseling and therapy i am sure this will pass. jst hope you dont get hit befre you realize.I hope everything works out for the best.

~Meagan~

HP-love craft · 08-11-2004, 07:44 PM

its got to be a phase because i know exactly what you mean, i have only suffered abuse once but i was never actully hurt, just pushed up against a wall, well theres more to that but its your topic not mine, anyway i always want to be hanging from chains or something or get into a fight, its weird. sometimes i think of being punched. when im asleep i have dreams of shooting myself and as soon as i pull the trigger i wake up.

well i dont know...its a weird feeling.

mtastic · 08-11-2004, 08:11 PM

You should definitely bring it up with your councilor, I'm sure he/she will be able to hlep you, or at least point you to some one who can. If you need want to talk about it, you know you can always talk here as well. And pleas don't act on these feelings, I think the last thing any of us want to see happen is for you to get hurt.

Best of luck to you,
mtastic

08-11-2004, 06:29 PM	#1
EmptySoul Offline Bronze Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Hannibal, Missouri. Gender: Female Age: 20 Posts: 830	I want to be physically hurt. Hello. For a while now, I've been wanting to be hurt physically. I self-injure and you think destruction to my body on my part would be enough, but I don't know... I've even had a dream about it a while back and I'm thinking about it more and more. I don't want it to come from a family member, but I want it to be a male. I don't understand why I want this and I can't recall hearing anyone else talk about something like this. Does anyone have any ideas? Have you heard of something like this before? Empty

08-11-2004, 06:52 PM	#4
i_hate_the_world47 Offline Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: California Age: 19 Posts: 915	Emptysoul, I know how you feel.After induring years of abuse from my step father,i becme accistomed to abuse.But i know its not right.I thyink you should speak to your parents about this.If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me. ~Meagan~ __________________ Whatever it takes....i know i can make it through

08-11-2004, 07:07 PM	#6
i_hate_the_world47 Offline Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: California Age: 19 Posts: 915	emptysoul, Has anyone that you know ever been abused.Maybe a friend or something.That may also be a factor.Seeing this counselor may help.Good luck. ~Meagan~ __________________ Whatever it takes....i know i can make it through

08-11-2004, 07:16 PM	#8
i_hate_the_world47 Offline Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: California Age: 19 Posts: 915	well then maye this is just a phase.With alittle help like counseling and therapy i am sure this will pass. jst hope you dont get hit befre you realize.I hope everything works out for the best. ~Meagan~ __________________ Whatever it takes....i know i can make it through

08-11-2004, 07:44 PM	#9
HP-love craft Offline Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Age: 19 Posts: 33	its got to be a phase because i know exactly what you mean, i have only suffered abuse once but i was never actully hurt, just pushed up against a wall, well theres more to that but its your topic not mine, anyway i always want to be hanging from chains or something or get into a fight, its weird. sometimes i think of being punched. when im asleep i have dreams of shooting myself and as soon as i pull the trigger i wake up. well i dont know...its a weird feeling. __________________ dont ignore yourself. thats the worst possible thing to do.

08-11-2004, 06:33 PM	#2
Dezeard Offline Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Canada Age: 21 Posts: 83	This is serious. I think you should seek some pro help right away! This could lead to things like murder or even worse. Stuff like this isn't a good place to bring here, you need to talk to someone.

08-11-2004, 06:34 PM	#3
ang3l2004 Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: I wish somewhere I belong Posts: 985	Were you abused growing up?Father brother any type of male whatsoever?pm me anytime

08-11-2004, 07:02 PM	#5
EmptySoul Offline Bronze Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Hannibal, Missouri. Gender: Female Age: 20 Posts: 830	I've started seeing a counselor recently, so hopefully I will be able to get her advice on this soon. The strange thing is, I have never really been abused. (i know many who self-injure have been.) my father has anger problems and sometimes yells or breaks things but never touches me... Empty

08-11-2004, 07:09 PM	#7
EmptySoul Offline Bronze Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Hannibal, Missouri. Gender: Female Age: 20 Posts: 830	No one I know has been abused, with the exception of other self-injurers I talk to online. Empty

08-11-2004, 08:11 PM	#10
mtastic Offline Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Philadelphia Age: 27 Posts: 398	You should definitely bring it up with your councilor, I'm sure he/she will be able to hlep you, or at least point you to some one who can. If you need want to talk about it, you know you can always talk here as well. And pleas don't act on these feelings, I think the last thing any of us want to see happen is for you to get hurt. Best of luck to you, mtastic __________________ "Well, thats my life to the present date, and even though it may seem awful and full of calamities, I'd sure be in bad shape without it." -Buddy Holly