Even though I split up and cut all contact 5 weeks ago because I could not handle her talking to someone else she met on a website we tried for months to be friends only sleeping together not something I recommend ever!!!! I always caught her talking to many women even when we were together although she said she never cheated just I caught her talking to girls she briefly dated and others women. When I said I never wanted her back in the summer after one of our many arguments she went on dating website straight away. I don't how one can date and message other women so quickly. I still can't do that and I am the one who broke it off.
I don't why I am suddenly remembering the good times. Her kids were nice enough, they are older she had them young but was never in relationships with men. I hated her talking to so many different women even though she said they were just friends but it was not fair on m.e I worked away and done her house up and she did do stuff for me too. We had a dog together and I guess she tried to keep in touch for the dog.
The last straw was on Facebook a guy who constantly commented on her pics last summer 2011 and she met him years AGO but was just friends with him we argued so much she finally told him she was gay and took him off Facebook back in the summer 2011.
A few weeks ago I went on her picture and he commented she added this idiot perv back, his Facebook is filthy maybe I over reacted but her lies and she made me take a woman off my Facebook just because she would comment on my stuff. And I am pregnant with a sperm donor he is my Facebook she made such a big deal out of that but she tried to look for her baby daddies that she DID SLEEP with on Facebook yet had a go at me about my sperm donor and added this perv guy back?? writing all this down I don't even know why I am missing her??
She did love me and tried to make it work in her way. She never cheated and said I was her proper intimate partner. I believe her because her past relationships seem a disaster. We were together 2.5 years maybe last year really badly just cannot leave each other but cannot be together. We were attracted to each other and I miss our good moments and our tender moments in bed and stuff.
I need help advice on how to move on? I am so happy to be having my precious baby but thought she would be there but is not. I did do it alone so she questions if I did inseminate. I did not sleep with the donor, he just donated and we don't talk on Facebook ever or email. I miss her and think back to the thunder moment we met 3 years ago 1 week before Christmas. She is blocked from my facebook but I checked on her new girls page and I can see she sent her stuff and they like each others pic. I know I should not but how can she move on so quickly? She always done this even in her past brief relationships.
I am so sick at the moment, off work, heavily pregnant, and today is just a bad day for thinking of the ex.