I kinda can't believe I'm writing this, but we all change over time, so maybe it was inevitable. So I used to be very concerned about others -- putting everyone's needs before mine, that type of thing. Dutiful and "responsible," I guess you could say. There were pluses and minuses to that, but over time, the minuses started outweighing the pluses. Mostly, I felt stressed and tapped out and like I basically needed to start taking care of myself.
I remember in high school how a teacher once suggested to us that doing nice things for other people, like going to visit your grandmother, would make you feel good. Although I was the "good girl" and completely agreed with this, one guy in my class rejected that idea, saying the last thing he would enjoy would be giving up his time to visit his grandmother.
Well, now I feel like I've swung in his direction, and it kinda concerns me. Now, it's the people who used to be "selfish" who are doing things for others, but I - who used to be not so concerned with myself - find I'm wanting more and more time for myself. The idea of reaching out to people drains me. I don't necessarily want to hang out with anyone I don't like (in a group). At work, if I come across some information (an article or some outside training materials) that would be helpful to me, I choose not to copy it for anyone else, not because I want to withhold but because I feel lazy.
Does it sound to you like I'm burned out? I'm worried that as I've started to take more care of myself, I'm getting too selfish.