fairly recently, I broke up with my emotionally abusive boyfriend. He didn't see it as abuse because he never hit me. He had a very bad childhood, but he stopped seeking therapy years ago, so he was walking around like a walking time bomb. Before I met him, I was a happy and easy-going person. Always smiling, laughing, enjoying life. When I met him, he killed a part of me and ate away at my self esteem.
The last time I saw him, was the last straw and the worst night of my life. We had been arguing recently, and I wasn't going to see him, but I just dont give up on a relationship, so I wanted to see it through. He was going through alot of stuff and I wanted to be there for him. So, I took the train to see him after work. I got off the train, and he wasnt there yet, so I sat on the bench. He was waiting behind the other cars, and didnt see me so texted me. I saw him, and I preceded to get in the car. I didnt even close the door yet, and he was taking off! no Hi, nada. Immediately, he starts with the negative talk. Lady in front of him was on the cell phone bla bla bla. So I told him you know, i take the train here and you dont even say Hi to me?? you dont even let me in the car and your taking off!! he blamed the cab behind him waiting. That never mattered before when he said he can wait, because was more concerned about me.
It did not get better from there, it got worse. His words were just getting meaner and meaner by the minute. He doesnt understand how when he shows up like that, how it should affect me when its about him not me. I told him when he gives off negative energy it has a bad affect on me. He said what is this negative energy s***!!!! he just wouldnt stop. He was always blaming me claiming its me that needs to change not him. Then he threatened to take me back to the train station after were done at the mall. We planned on getting his nieces gift together, i even printed out a coupon!!
In the mall, he was being just as demeaning. So, he went in the store and I just waited for him. Didnt help nothing. I was texting my friends to try and calm down. Then he checked out and demanded to know who I was texting. I told him to take me to the train station. He was driving to his house and I said no way in heck am I spending the night with him. THen he starts calling me negative, said I am a bad person, etc. Did he really expect me to help him after the way he acted??? to make a long story short he was texting me all night, I left his house and spent 2 hours getting home and didnt look back.
Still hard because I do love him but he will never change, and now I know why his ex didnt want to have anything to do with him after they broke up.