story : my boyfriend and i have been together for 6 years. we both love each other very much and have never cheated on each other before. we are super close and are best friends, and convinced we are gonna be together forever.
but about a month ago i started cheating. ive been having an affair with another guy that im falling for. he knows everything about my boyfriend and hes actually been hanging out with our friends with over a year now but just recently showed interest.
ive been staying with him every night for a little over a week now and we are developing strong feelings for each other. hes convinced im gonna leave my bf for him, and ive tried to but its so hard to officially end things between us.
ive tried telling my bf that i need a break and i do believe we'll be together forever, but that we should both be single one more time before we meet back up for good. he says he can tell ive been different and he knows i dont want to be with him anymore. he doesnt know theres someone else and i keep telling him i dont want to break up to be with other guys, just to be alone and have space (which he always gives me when i want) but the thought of not having him around scares me because we've been together for so long. i love him so much and there are things that i just cant compare to anyone else because, well its him and we've been building this for so long.
i have no idea why i started cheating. idk if i was bored or what. i know our relationship is already ruined because of my cheating so it's almost like i have to.
i have to choose between the two very soon, and i have no idea what im gonna do.
what if my affair is just fun because its new and exciting? what if i immediately regret breaking up with my bf and he moves on? all these what ifs are killing me and i really need some advice! any advice is appreciated.