Ive had plenty of time to think about this and i feel low enough to the point where i want to take my life, and end this. Its never going to get better. Im already going to counseling and taking medicine, and it does nothing. Theres no light anymore, i have no hope. Everything is negative in my life. I dont wanna be around anyone anymore cuz its all just all lie. Im just putting on a front whenever im with anybody, they dont care how i feel so theres no point in showing anything and just act normal. Im tired of being lonely and empty, i feel like i dont even belong on this earth. Im tired of feeling anything anymore. i cant take this pain and suffering everyday, i have nothing left, no will to even try and keep on going and hope things get better. Im not meant to be here, i dont belong anywhere. I have to do this, i just feel like its what i have to do. I dont want this life i cant do it. Everyday i think about ending it all. My life is so messed up, my life is all bad since i was a baby. The damage has already been done, theres nothing anyone can do to change the things that ive been seen or been through. I dont have anyone to be there when i need them. I dont have any trust or faith in anyone anymore, all i have is myself. Thats why i need this to stop, i cant live any longer feeling like this.