Im guessing this is not the first time a post like this has come up, and i hate the fact that i have fallen for a married man.
Ok, so... I seriously need some good advice here. Honest, good, advice.
I recently got myself a new job. Now the man in question, is in his early 40's and he is very attractive, ticks all my boxes. He has an amazing voice, he's intelligent, funny, he has a <removed> hott smile, im completely infatuated with him. Im 20 years younger than him. And he loves that fact.
I get the impression as i would from a married or single man, that he fancies me. Now im not stupid. I know hes not about to give up his wife and kid for some little bit on the side. He's probably bored, the most i would ever get from this is him having a wank over me when he's alone in the shower.
Anyway, he's really flirty with me. Hes always making stupid excuses to talk to me, He keeps lending me CD's to listen to. He craps himself sometimes when were talking, like i can see him shaking a little. He has the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen. Today i saw him and we just looked at eachother and said nothing. He looks at me like hes trying to <removed>me with his eyes and i cant stand it.
He is everything i admire in a man. He's has a good working background like my father, and i admire that. He's a good man. And thats just it. If he ever came onto me, in my eyes, i would be getting what i want, but would he no longer be a good man?
I want him so bad though. Im trying to be good. Im a Catholic and im trying to save myself for marriage. I have never, in my whole life, wanted to be <removed> by a man as much i do this one. I just have to think about his face, and how he looks at me, and i just want to touch myself. He turns me on so bad. I want him all the time. And im so scared that im never gonna meet someone who turns me on like that. He just walks into the room and he's already turned me on. Yeah yeah, i probably just need to get laid, whatever, but even when i had oral sex with my ex boyfriend i had to think of porn to get me off. He did turn me on of course, but he couldnt make me come, and this married man, makes me come so hard its unbelieveable. And he has no idea how i have thought about him. I am in awe of him. I worship him. I cant stop thinking about him. I dont know what to do. I want to be with him, and be a good woman to him. I want to make love to him every day, give him what his wife doesnt.
Sorry if that was a bit heavy, but i needed to let it off!
Any advice readers?
Dazed and Confused,