hi, i recently have noticed that i am constantly asking my boyfriend of 6 months for reassurance of how much he loves me, how he finds me more attractive than any other girl, how he's never loved someone as much, and other foolish things like if he's only turned on by me..
i know this sounds very silly, but it's most confusing for me because i don't have low self esteem, and i'm actually very confident. It would be one thing if i was shy, or insecure... but i'm really not at all.
I'm starting to think it goes back to trust issues, like i always need to ask if we had sex if he thinks he'd enjoy it more than he had with any other girl previously- i know that sounds so immature of me, but he is always telling me things like that, and i know that i'm his first love, since before he only had hookups or one night stands that didn't mean anything. He treats me great and will always reassure me without a doubt in his voice. So i do know he loves me- but what's wrong with me? like why would i need to always hear that i'm the most special to him/how much he loves me? The questions i ask usually are comparing me to his past girls, making sure his experience with me has been better- do you think it's because i have trust issues or because i really am insecure? It's annoying because i don't like feeling so needy. I'm normally pretty independent and not the clingy type.
Just looking for opinions and different points of view to help me understand. Thank you!