Its been just over 2 months since we broke up, and i have had a much better second month (with some really bad times mixed in) and at the moment I suppose I could say i am getting by the best i can. Yet whenever I see her, and I can't avoid that, i just feel this ache in my stomach. After everything thats happened between us since we broke up, what she's done and the arguments we have had, i still love her and i just want to not care.
We are being civil to each other, not friends because we don't do stuff together, but i don't care about that anymore. She has moved on and i can't help feeling that she's moved on to a better life whereas i'm still trying to pick up the pieces and be happy again. That's probably a lack of self confidence. I've realised the bad things about her and bad things about me as well and probably we were definitely not right for each other but i know in my heart i'd take her back instantly.
How will i know when i stop loving her and how long will it take? and what can i do to speed it up because all i want to do is be able to see her and not care.