I feel like I'm losing it. Like seriously losing my mind.

CoCo2009 · 11-03-2009, 10:35 PM

I can't find work, I have no motivation to look anymore. I can't think straight. I have too many problems..I try to think positive and it lasts only 2 hours and then I get all anxious inside and bust out in tears. I can't function. I don't want to go around anyone. I'm tired of being pressured into going over my moms house to fake laugh when inside I'm lost and angry. I don't know what to do...I'm genuinely lost...seriously and completely utterly lost.

redherring · 11-03-2009, 10:43 PM

Eeek, sounds pretty pants.

Have you seen anybody? You sound depressed. x

CoCo2009 · 11-03-2009, 10:46 PM

I have given up...I don't want to see anyone and I can't afford it. I shouldn't have the internet but its the only contact I have with people really....I mean, its really awkward. I don't know what to do anymore. I lost everything that I cared about already. What is there to live for really. I keep trying to ask myself and I keep trying to be strong but I don't think I have it anymore. I have been trying to fake it until I make it but that doesn't work.

simply complicated · 11-03-2009, 10:49 PM

Wow thats me alright...

I lost my job about a month and half ago, can't find decent work, and sometimes feel like complete and utter shyte about everything.

The only thing is, that life, especially during down times like these are hard enough, but to just sit around and think about them makes it that much worse.

For me stress was starting to build up, so to help rid myself of it, I got back into martial arts, brazilian jujitsu and muay thai four times a week, it really helps you forget about problems in the outside world, and you leave there feeling completely accomplished and more upbeat, restoring that temporary spurt of motivation, so I suggest, hitting a gym of any sort, it really does help does help change your mood, cause there is no way to persue the outside world feeling like shyte.

anonguy77 · 11-03-2009, 10:53 PM

CoCo,

You are not alone. I am also unemployed. I also recently have pretty much lost everything - marriage, good job, friends etc. It can seem unbelievably lonely and hopeless. Believe me, I know how you feel. I can't even afford to go out with my friends when they want to go out, which is rarely. You really find out who cares when you are in these situations and who was just faking.

The job opportunities I want are not popping up and life seems pretty bleak right now but there are glimmers of hope here and there. I just sometimes fear that even those glimmers will disappear. Sometimes I wonder if there is anyone else out there feeling this way. Sounds like there is. But life has its ups and downs. When you are down, you feel this is the only situation you will ever be in, but the truth is, there is always an up. If you've been happy before, you will be happy again. I know we'll both be on our way to better times soon, but I really do empathize with you. These are tough times for everyone, and I notice you're in California. I think our unemployment rate is over 10 percent now, that's a lot of people.

CoCo2009 · 11-03-2009, 10:53 PM

I can't afford a hamburger.

anonguy77 · 11-03-2009, 10:56 PM

Yeah, I know what you mean. I've been looking under the seats in my car and in the couch for loose change.

CoCo2009 · 11-03-2009, 11:00 PM

But I feel like a loser, I worked all my life to keep my credit good and not its shot to hell. Everyone keeps telling me apply for any job. WELL DUH THATS WHAT I'M DOING. No one understands...I don't get how they think I'm lying. Well I have given up lately, I feel like just sitting here and watching everything just crumble around me. Just sit here until they come and evict me from my apartment, just sit here until they take my car away.. I just want to stare at the wall and just sit here and not move..or think or care. I think this is hell. I used to think when you die you go to hell but honestly I think I am already in hell. I'm tired of people telling me oh at least you have your health..whats the point of having health if you are miserable. I hate that so much...I CANNOT stand it. Its the most annoying thing I have ever heard in my life.

anonguy77 · 11-03-2009, 11:08 PM

That's where they're wrong. It doesn't help when people tell us "at least you have your health." They don't understand how it is. You have to allow yourself to feel these emotions. You are in a dark place. Of course you're in a dark place, you are alone, and broke, you feel trapped and like there is nowhere to go, like the walls are closing in. You are NOT going crazy though. I'm telling you, I feel like a loser too. I have a grad degree, I was making great money, now I have to go sign my unemployment checks in front of the bank teller. It takes you down a notch, and then certain people abandon you, either because they were never really your friend, or just cannot take being around someone who is lonely and depressed. You are NOT a loser. The difference between a charmed life and our situation is actually very small. There are no guarantees and people who are doing great today, could be doing terribly tomorrow. I guess the only way to look at it is to make the choice are you going to let life crumble around you, or are you going to keep figthing, because you care about yourself, regardless of how long it takes or how bad things are? That's the choice you have.

CoCo2009 · 11-03-2009, 11:11 PM

but I feel like I can't do it anymore...I can't do it because im lost and I hate everyone. Like everytime I see a person I want to smack them because I am so angry at the world. I would never actually smack a person but I hate everyone..everyone gets on my nerves...everyone annoys me because I know they are selfish a holes and they suck! I can't stand people.

11-03-2009, 10:35 PM	#1
CoCo2009 Offline Silver Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: California Gender: Female Age: 28 Posts: 2,517	I feel like I'm losing it. Like seriously losing my mind. I can't find work, I have no motivation to look anymore. I can't think straight. I have too many problems..I try to think positive and it lasts only 2 hours and then I get all anxious inside and bust out in tears. I can't function. I don't want to go around anyone. I'm tired of being pressured into going over my moms house to fake laugh when inside I'm lost and angry. I don't know what to do...I'm genuinely lost...seriously and completely utterly lost.

11-03-2009, 10:43 PM	#2
redherring Offline Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 90	Eeek, sounds pretty pants. Have you seen anybody? You sound depressed. x

11-03-2009, 10:46 PM	#3
CoCo2009 Offline Silver Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: California Gender: Female Age: 28 Posts: 2,517	I have given up...I don't want to see anyone and I can't afford it. I shouldn't have the internet but its the only contact I have with people really....I mean, its really awkward. I don't know what to do anymore. I lost everything that I cared about already. What is there to live for really. I keep trying to ask myself and I keep trying to be strong but I don't think I have it anymore. I have been trying to fake it until I make it but that doesn't work.

11-03-2009, 10:49 PM	#4
simply complicated Offline Gold Member Join Date: Aug 2003 Gender: None Specified Age: 25 Posts: 954	Wow thats me alright... I lost my job about a month and half ago, can't find decent work, and sometimes feel like complete and utter shyte about everything. The only thing is, that life, especially during down times like these are hard enough, but to just sit around and think about them makes it that much worse. For me stress was starting to build up, so to help rid myself of it, I got back into martial arts, brazilian jujitsu and muay thai four times a week, it really helps you forget about problems in the outside world, and you leave there feeling completely accomplished and more upbeat, restoring that temporary spurt of motivation, so I suggest, hitting a gym of any sort, it really does help does help change your mood, cause there is no way to persue the outside world feeling like shyte.

11-03-2009, 10:53 PM	#5
anonguy77 Offline Bronze Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Northern California Gender: Male Posts: 122	CoCo, You are not alone. I am also unemployed. I also recently have pretty much lost everything - marriage, good job, friends etc. It can seem unbelievably lonely and hopeless. Believe me, I know how you feel. I can't even afford to go out with my friends when they want to go out, which is rarely. You really find out who cares when you are in these situations and who was just faking. The job opportunities I want are not popping up and life seems pretty bleak right now but there are glimmers of hope here and there. I just sometimes fear that even those glimmers will disappear. Sometimes I wonder if there is anyone else out there feeling this way. Sounds like there is. But life has its ups and downs. When you are down, you feel this is the only situation you will ever be in, but the truth is, there is always an up. If you've been happy before, you will be happy again. I know we'll both be on our way to better times soon, but I really do empathize with you. These are tough times for everyone, and I notice you're in California. I think our unemployment rate is over 10 percent now, that's a lot of people.

11-03-2009, 10:56 PM	#7
anonguy77 Offline Bronze Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Northern California Gender: Male Posts: 122	Yeah, I know what you mean. I've been looking under the seats in my car and in the couch for loose change.

11-03-2009, 11:00 PM	#8
CoCo2009 Offline Silver Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: California Gender: Female Age: 28 Posts: 2,517	But I feel like a loser, I worked all my life to keep my credit good and not its shot to hell. Everyone keeps telling me apply for any job. WELL DUH THATS WHAT I'M DOING. No one understands...I don't get how they think I'm lying. Well I have given up lately, I feel like just sitting here and watching everything just crumble around me. Just sit here until they come and evict me from my apartment, just sit here until they take my car away.. I just want to stare at the wall and just sit here and not move..or think or care. I think this is hell. I used to think when you die you go to hell but honestly I think I am already in hell. I'm tired of people telling me oh at least you have your health..whats the point of having health if you are miserable. I hate that so much...I CANNOT stand it. Its the most annoying thing I have ever heard in my life.

11-03-2009, 11:08 PM	#9
anonguy77 Offline Bronze Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Northern California Gender: Male Posts: 122	That's where they're wrong. It doesn't help when people tell us "at least you have your health." They don't understand how it is. You have to allow yourself to feel these emotions. You are in a dark place. Of course you're in a dark place, you are alone, and broke, you feel trapped and like there is nowhere to go, like the walls are closing in. You are NOT going crazy though. I'm telling you, I feel like a loser too. I have a grad degree, I was making great money, now I have to go sign my unemployment checks in front of the bank teller. It takes you down a notch, and then certain people abandon you, either because they were never really your friend, or just cannot take being around someone who is lonely and depressed. You are NOT a loser. The difference between a charmed life and our situation is actually very small. There are no guarantees and people who are doing great today, could be doing terribly tomorrow. I guess the only way to look at it is to make the choice are you going to let life crumble around you, or are you going to keep figthing, because you care about yourself, regardless of how long it takes or how bad things are? That's the choice you have.

11-03-2009, 11:11 PM	#10
CoCo2009 Offline Silver Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: California Gender: Female Age: 28 Posts: 2,517	but I feel like I can't do it anymore...I can't do it because im lost and I hate everyone. Like everytime I see a person I want to smack them because I am so angry at the world. I would never actually smack a person but I hate everyone..everyone gets on my nerves...everyone annoys me because I know they are selfish a holes and they suck! I can't stand people.