My love has end stage lung cancer.

[coldplay.]

Hes 16 years old and named toby, ive has him since i was 6 or 7. Always a super nervous and neurotic dog. But he was always so happy, never have i seen a happier or luckier dog in my life. I actually wanted to change his name to lucky when i rescued him from my dad who nearly killed them. I dont know if i can ever look at my dad the same after that. He just abandoned them in our old back yard, just moved out and left them to die, im so happy the cops were called, so i took it upon myself, right after the worst experience in my life, instead of having them put down i took them with me, in my little ghetto apartment, and for the next 6 months or so they were my only friends, they both slept with me every night, and through the worst with them.

Hes been through so much, broken leg hit by car, eaten chicken wings that tore up his stomach, another car accident that peeled his scalp back, appendicitis, now late stage cancer.

When he had appendicitis i remember, me and my ex balling our eyes out in the middle of the night driving 30 miles to the closest all night animal hospital, we had so many memories, the funniest stories though, we were taking him for a walk in my home town when he climbs up on this decorative rock, no idea why hes like 14 and pretty old, and just diarrheas on it, in shock toby my ex and I ran in hysterical terror. A year later, after he eats meals, he loves to rub his face on anything, so me and my ex would do it for him, which he almost couldnt handle he liked it so much, so he was on our bed, we were rubbing his face with a blanket and he does a 15 year old somersault and we while bursting with laughter hope he didnt just break his neck, but nope, he sprung back up and looked at us like "what are you laughin at?" it was classic. Its sad, the people like my dad an my ex, they will never know what happened to this amazing friend, my ex hasnt spoken to me in a year now, and my dad doesnt deserve to know. That kind of hurts.

I dont see them much anymore, they live with my mom, and it makes me feel awful. It seems that no matter how much you do, there is always a certain measure that you take for granted no matter how much you love them. No matter how rittled with arthritis and cancer, hes still the happiest dog ive ever seen. There is never a moment where he isnt wagging his tail and looking at me or someone.

He used to be such a runner, we would go to farm, fields, anything, and he would run around for hours and hours, getting into god knows what but he loved it.


Id like to say some kind of thanks to hermudders, until i saw your photos i hadnt really experienced what i should have been, and im sorry for your loss.

[Victoria66]

I am sorry for your pup. I know it is hard to lose a beloved pet. I lost my beloved cat 3 months after my son was born and I had him since I was 16.

[hersmudders]

Coldplay, I'm so sorry to read this.

He sounds like an amazing dog...he sounds quirky and full of life and very loved.

You know I recently lost my dog to cancer...from diagnosis to her death, the amount of time was barely 2 weeks. But she'd been losing weight and sick for a few weeks before taht. It was very quick otherwise and I didn't have a lot of time to prepare myself.

I put her down just 5 days after moving back to my hometown in Florida when she woke up in the middle of the night having a stroke. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm still not over it...I've been sleepin wit her collar in my bed b/c sometimes when I move the tags jingle and it reminds me of her moving around in my bed.

Have they given you any length of time that he may have left? Any form of treatment? I will say that I had options for my dog's health after her diagnosis but I opted not to take any of them b/c her quality of life would've been very poor and I didn't want her to finish her last year with vet visits, needles, pills, etc. I'm not sure I could've handled it either.

He's 16 years old...he's had a good long life, even despite his tribulations with your father, car accidents, etc. Cherish the years you had with him and know that he had a longer life than most dogs get to have.

You're in my thoughts.

[TechResQ]

Coldplay, your post made me cry. I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this. I know it is so difficult and painful. Your dog was very lucky to have you in his life and vice versa.

Godspeed Toby...you are very much loved and appreciated by your best buddy.

so sorry.

[coldplay.]

Thanks everyone, Thursday is the day, it really helped to just get it out, in semi privateness of the forum. Though it wasnt the best written tribute, its what i was feeling and thats all i was aiming for.

Hes so old, all the best photos of him i have are real photographs, not digital, these photos here are recent.







Again thank you.

[TechResQ]

what a sweetheart he is!!! English setter???? He is very beautiful. You GAVE him life...I hope you realize that....he would have been gone a long time ago but YOU gave him life and love and happiness...YOU.

and you should be proud of that and bask in the warm feeling that gives you. and YOU are going to be the one that saves him from his pain, when push comes to shove.

Hang in there...I know it's difficult...