Up and Down
He left me
Not what I wanted
It is going to be a month very soon and I find myself missing him alot more lately. I am surprised that we have not been talking and I miss him so much. I know that NOTHING good would come from having a conversation but he is always on my mind. I did everything I could to win his love and respect for a long time and he still didnt love me right.
I just love him and I never wanted our love to go away. I think he is probably got another chic and moving along fine. I wish it was that easy for me. The last time we talked I was crying my eyes out and he said he just dont want to be in a relationship right now.
I tried to be friends before this happen but I couldnt get it thru my head that we were not really together. I finally said, I will face the lost. It has been a month.
I havent talked to him and even if he would calll, it wouldnt be to say I love you and I want you back. It would be to say how are you are some stuff like that. I want more!!!!
Anyway, I could never be with him treating me the way it has been lately. I dont want that. I just want the man that use to love me back.. I just tell myself, dont bank on him coming back and I try to move on. It is rough!!! I just wonder will he ever look back. Does he miss me? Does he care? is this really want he wants?