Well all my friends are now officially married with kids while I am single. It sucks because it is like now I do not have anyone to hang out with anymore..it is lonely and makes me feel lost as if life is starting to pass me by. My ex of 3.5 years and best friend left me 8 months ago and I could always count on her to be up for something. Now it just sucks cause I feel like I have noone. I feel like I have nothing in common with my friends anymore. I like to go out and do stuff and now it seems all they want to do is sit around and talk about thier families or the new recipe that they just tried...it really is just to boring to me. I work nights and have met alot of new people since my ex left me but noone has stood out as someone that I could have a significant relationship with. As I said I work overnights in a job that I hate but cant get a new one, so now pretty much I do nothing during the day and then go to work and repeat the process until the weekend where if I am lucky one of my friends will go out with me. I cant seem to meet any women. All I ever meet is women in bars and have got the occasional number but noone has really sparked my interest to the point where I would ask them out for a date. It is just so lonely, I feel lost, I feel the people closest to me are so distant. I feel like life is passing me by. It is wierd because I envy what my friends have. I envy that they are happy and in love, happy with a family. I thought I was going to have that. I was head head over heals in love with my ex and thought we would be the ones experiencing what so many of my firends have now. To experience love and then lose it makes you want it that much more again. I guess it is like a drug that hooks you and once you have had that high you always want to have it.
I don't know if this is the right forum for this. I dont know how to shake this feeling of feeling so lost in life right now. I apologize for the vent session. I just had to get some stuff out because I really dont have anyone that I can talk to about how I feel anymore. I am just really hating life right now...in just about every aspect of mine.