should i commit myself?

LMKunkel · 03-24-2009, 01:19 PM

I do okay when i'm by myself but i came to the realization that i seriously hate people. I'll sit in class and fume at all the dumb kids. even a facial expression will set my anxiety level sky high. or someone being too loud or too obnoxious. i don't really talk to people. i'm not rude or mean to them, i just keep to myself and fume from the corner. the only people in my life right now are my mom (recently divorced, i'm taking care of her) and my boyfriend (used to work with him for a year and a half). i've pushed everyone else away for fear of social engagements.

i'm coming to a mental wall. i don't know how much more hate i can take. i had a huge fight with my boyfriend last night for no reason other than to have an argument. i picked a touchy subject too, he hasn't really talked to me today. school tomorrow worries me. i don't want to hurt somebody. i don't think i would, but i'm not sure.

i consider mental hospitals places for people who are going to commit suicide or are really nuts. am i really nuts? is it 'normal' to not like people to this extent?

MollyElise · 03-24-2009, 01:24 PM

First off, if you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or other people you need to talk to a doctor asap.

As far as committing yourself, it's hard for me or anyone else to get in your head or see how you are acting.

For myself, when I have had to go to the hospital for mental health reasons, it wasn't much of a question of should I, I was obviously (to me and others) not OK.

My gut reaction to what you wrote though is that it would be best to talk to your primary care physician about what you are experiencing.

KG · 03-24-2009, 02:19 PM

LMK,
How about calling a hotline, for someone unbiased to talk to?

skarlet · 03-24-2009, 04:29 PM

At first glance, I wonder if you are autistic, or have asperger's syndrome. My brother and dad are slightly autistic/have asperger's syndrome.

That means that interaction with other people is particularly hard and frustrating for them, they have a hard time empathizing, and loud noises, or physical contact can overwhelm them. My brother "overreacts" to facial expressions and tones of voice too, and has had trouble with anxiety/panic attacks in the past (thankfully, he no longer has panic attacks)

If you are slightly autistic, then you are not crazy at all! However, since this issue is really bothering you and making your life hard, if I were you, I would see a counselor/therapist.

EQD · 03-24-2009, 04:45 PM

you arent nuts.
you sound introverted and stressed. i can relate to alot of what you wrote. And my SO is similar to me. My Dad is too.
We all hate people.
But i dont feel this way because i fear social interaction, its becasue i dont like it or need it. And because of how i was raised i cant relate to the vast majority of people.
Nothing wrong with being antisocial.

You said you started a fight with your bf just to start one, and that loud noises and 'static' bother you, when i am over-stressed or upset i tend to get moody, and anything except absolute silence enrages me. Because its offensive and unnecessary, here i am trying to wind down and these 'dumb noisey people' have to go around being obnoxious.

i can relate. and there is nothing wrong with you.

03-24-2009, 01:19 PM	#1
LMKunkel Offline Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 29	should i commit myself? I do okay when i'm by myself but i came to the realization that i seriously hate people. I'll sit in class and fume at all the dumb kids. even a facial expression will set my anxiety level sky high. or someone being too loud or too obnoxious. i don't really talk to people. i'm not rude or mean to them, i just keep to myself and fume from the corner. the only people in my life right now are my mom (recently divorced, i'm taking care of her) and my boyfriend (used to work with him for a year and a half). i've pushed everyone else away for fear of social engagements. i'm coming to a mental wall. i don't know how much more hate i can take. i had a huge fight with my boyfriend last night for no reason other than to have an argument. i picked a touchy subject too, he hasn't really talked to me today. school tomorrow worries me. i don't want to hurt somebody. i don't think i would, but i'm not sure. i consider mental hospitals places for people who are going to commit suicide or are really nuts. am i really nuts? is it 'normal' to not like people to this extent?

03-24-2009, 01:24 PM	#2
MollyElise Offline Gold Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Austin Tx Gender: Female Age: 29 Posts: 717	First off, if you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or other people you need to talk to a doctor asap. As far as committing yourself, it's hard for me or anyone else to get in your head or see how you are acting. For myself, when I have had to go to the hospital for mental health reasons, it wasn't much of a question of should I, I was obviously (to me and others) not OK. My gut reaction to what you wrote though is that it would be best to talk to your primary care physician about what you are experiencing. __________________ "Does no one cry here, either? I suppose there's no need to, in heaven" Age of Innocence

03-24-2009, 02:19 PM	#3
KG Online Platinum Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: 2 miles east of Hicksville Gender: Male Posts: 4,902	LMK, How about calling a hotline, for someone unbiased to talk to? __________________ Life is just a word until you go through it. I've got the scars to prove it.

03-24-2009, 04:45 PM	#5
EQD Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Gender: Female Age: 22 Posts: 5,972	you arent nuts. you sound introverted and stressed. i can relate to alot of what you wrote. And my SO is similar to me. My Dad is too. We all hate people. But i dont feel this way because i fear social interaction, its becasue i dont like it or need it. And because of how i was raised i cant relate to the vast majority of people. Nothing wrong with being antisocial. You said you started a fight with your bf just to start one, and that loud noises and 'static' bother you, when i am over-stressed or upset i tend to get moody, and anything except absolute silence enrages me. Because its offensive and unnecessary, here i am trying to wind down and these 'dumb noisey people' have to go around being obnoxious. i can relate. and there is nothing wrong with you. __________________ http://sumitsays.com/2009/05/29/in-your-headlights/

03-24-2009, 04:29 PM	#4
skarlet Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 62	At first glance, I wonder if you are autistic, or have asperger's syndrome. My brother and dad are slightly autistic/have asperger's syndrome. That means that interaction with other people is particularly hard and frustrating for them, they have a hard time empathizing, and loud noises, or physical contact can overwhelm them. My brother "overreacts" to facial expressions and tones of voice too, and has had trouble with anxiety/panic attacks in the past (thankfully, he no longer has panic attacks) If you are slightly autistic, then you are not crazy at all! However, since this issue is really bothering you and making your life hard, if I were you, I would see a counselor/therapist.