I have a doc appointment to finally talk to my doctor about the way i have been feeling. Basically i feel horrible 95% of the time. I have moment where im on a serious high and feel happy and that i can take anything on. But that only last for up to 30mins and then i crash hard and feel angry, upset, sad, etc.... I also have suicidal thought as well. I have never plotted it out or attempted anything but that fact that those thoughts are even there is disturbing to me. THere are points when i absolutely cant calm myself down. I will be crying and pacing around the house and cant do anything until eventually the feeling subsides, but this can go on for hours.
ANyways im excited to have this appt tomorrow but dont know what to expect. ANyone been there before? Talking about this stuff for the first time with your doc? How might he react? I scared if i say i have suicidal thoguht from time to time that he will blow it out of proportion and have me admitted to the hospital or something.
thanks for anyone help