1yr since MewSkitty commited suicide

Hi, I'am Chris's dad. Being that this is the first aniversary of Chris's death. I wanted to spend some time with some of you folks, that in some ways knew Chris better than I did. It wasnt until July this year that I found out that this was a site that he spent alot of time on and that the very last words that he had written was on this sit. I read alot of the responses that some of you had to my sons suicide and was overwelmed by them. Ill stay on line for awhile. And if anyone out there is thinking of taking your life and would like to know what its been like for me, please ask.

Hi there, I wasn't active on this site when he was, but I have heard about him and have read some of his posts.

I'm so sorry you had to go through it. Please come here for support if you ever need to get anything out or talk about it. You'll receive wonderful support from wonderful people.

I've been through a friend's suicide myself and I wish I had a site like this back then to help me through it.

My condolences to you and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I wasn't here either, but I can understand some of the things you are going through. I lost my sister to suicide nearly 6 years ago. It seems like just yesterday. Hugs to you Dad.

I was here, and knew him fairly well. He was a delightful young man. I know you are proud of Chris, he had a loving heart...and his kindness filled the threads here.

My condolences to you and your family. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. We miss Chris and the life he brought to this forum.

I remember many of his posts, and also when it was announced on here about his passing.

I can't imagine the pain that your family is going through, and I hope you can find some peace in your memories.

I do know the pain that I felt 12 years ago, when I lost a brother to suicide, it's a tough road.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Take care...And God bless!

I wasn't here either, but when I was 19, I lost my boyfriend to suicide, and it forever changed my life.

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son.

My best to you. May you find some comfort here as well.

~Allie

thanks for your concern. Things have been tough, but since January i've been going to college including through the summer. Soon I will be starting a suicide prevention and awareness program and shortly after that i will set up a foundation in Chris's name that would provide funds for folks losing loved ones and can't afford proper service for them

I am so sorry for your loss.

thank you for coming here.

I still to this day have your son in my msn screan name saying Rest In Peace. I hope you can find support here when and if you need it. We still remember Chris fondly.

Hugs Butterfly Wrists

We were all very saddened by the passing of Mewskitty. His loss is felt here often.

I am glad that this site can offer you some small comfort. You are always welcome here, and always a friend.

With deepest sympathy,

BellaDonna

I am very sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.

I'm so very sorry for your loss, you have my deepest sympathy.

The suicide prevention and awareness program that you're starting and the foundation you're setting up in Chris's name are wonderful ways to honour his memory.

And if anyone out there is thinking of taking your life and would like to know what its been like for me, please ask.

I am not thiking of taking my life- however, if you feel comfortable sharing your experiences with us, I think it will be very helpful to some other members here.

Also, this thread may be something that interests you.

It contains stories of other members of the site, some of whom have also lost loved ones to suicide.

Hey There

Its fantastic your doing alll those things to help others It'll be amazing to be able to help others in the same situation.

I wasnt here when he was on ENA, but from reading his posts you could tell he was an amazing, intelligent young man and his loss was and is saddening to us all.

My life and lives of others I know have been touched by suicide. Its an awful thing to go through.

somewere along the way I think that we lost Chris to the internet long before he took his life. It seemed, being on line was his reality and when he lost his on line girlfriend, in his world, all was lost. without going into detail, unless someone asks me to, I think that I fell short in doing whatever It took to bring Chris back into the real world with me. And maybe, if I could have found a way, Chris would be with us today.

I read some of his posts and he seemed like a wonderful young man. I lost a close friend to suicide. My heart goes out to you. Please accept my condolences. I hope you find some solace in being here. Please keep posting.

The foundation in Chris' name is a great idea. I think it takes a lot of courage to channel your grief into something positive.

All the best,

Stella

I dont believe you did anything wrong or could have done anything better. Online was where he was happy. I dont think much could have changed that. He had issues and problems that no one could have just fixed.

Theres no use blaming yourself.

You're finding ways to place blame on yourself for Chris taking his own life. You cant do that. Sometimes we don't know the inner turmoil people are going through...even when they live right here with us. You had no idea that Chris had this going through his mind. He may not even have realized it until the moment he went to do it.

I think it would be great if you'd tell some of our new members here about Chris, so many people here don't know him. While we mourn his death, we can also celebrate his life. He was a loving person to all who knew him here.

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I was very sorry to hear of your loss. Welcome to eNotalone. It is very generous of you to offer to help others and share your experiences. I hope we can also help you gain some healing from all this and provide some peace for your family.

My condolences to you & your family.

So sorry for your loss.

I knew him only briefly, but I know he was very well liked here.

My heart goes out to you, on this day.

KG

somewere along the way I think that we lost Chris to the internet long before he took his life. It seemed, being on line was his reality and when he lost his on line girlfriend, in his world, all was lost. without going into detail, unless someone asks me to, I think that I fell short in doing whatever It took to bring Chris back into the real world with me. And maybe, if I could have found a way, Chris would be with us today.

I can understand why you would feel this way. But I hope with time you will realize that you can't blame yourself for what happened. Hindsight is always perfect. However when you are in the middle of a problem you try to make the best decisions you can with the information that you have. You couldn't have known it would turn out this way.

I remember all too well reading of it.

As someone who came very near this way out, I found new reasons to live.

As the father of a 15 yo daughter, and a 13 yo son, I can't imagine what you've gone thru.

The day I hit bottom and sat on my floor with my solution in my hand, I looked thru tears at my kids pictures and realized though my wife of 20 years had left me for another, I had to stay here for my kids. I couldn't leave them that legacy.

I try to help people see now that it's not the way out. It hurts too many people and that this dusty life is really worth living.

Jon