ok well i have a feeling i think way too much into things but this is something that is really really bothering me. ever since my last boyfriend and i broke up at the end of last summer i have been very self conscious about sex. we had a horrible breakup and said a lot of hurtful things to each other including him telling me i was horrible in bed and he did not enjoy having sex with me at all (even though he would initiate it 2-3 times a day and would get mad if i didnt want to.) So i dont know if he really felt that way or was just trying to hurt me. Either way I'm totally paranoid now that im boring or terrible when it comes to sex.
Well my current boyfriend and i have been dating for a month and a half now and last night we had sex for the first time. He didnt say "that was amazing" or anything like that, just cuddled with me afterwards. The next day he text messaged me saying that he was wanting that to happen for awhile now and it was even better than he expected. So I was feeling a little more confident. So tonight we go at it again, this time with me on top. At first i felt like he was really into it, he was saying how good it felt. Then he started looking up at me smiling and i felt like he was laughing at me or making fun of me for something so i asked him "whats so funny?" he said "nothing, im just smiling at you." So I dont know if that was a good thing or bad thing? Then we switched positions and he lasted for probably a little over 5 minutes. Something else that bothered me was that he didnt make a sound, no moaning or talking or anything. When he was done he just laid on top of me breathing hard and didnt say anything. I didnt get a "that was great" or "i loved it" or anything. A few minutes later he said "i was so turned on." Thats about the most positive thing he said about it.
He continued cuddling with me for about an hour and I could tell he was falling asleep so i said i was gonna go. He usually asks me to stay a little longer but this time he didnt. I laid there for a couple more minutes hoping he would say "lets do it again." Instead he said "well i would say lets do it again but you will probably be really sore tomorrow for work." I didnt know whether to take that as him making an excuse not to do it again or him wanting me to say no ill be fine, lets do it again. So i just got up and got dressed to leave. He walked me to the door, gave me a kiss and said he would miss me and to call him when i got home. I called him when i got home and i was hoping he would say something about it, like i really enjoyed it or i had a good time tonight or something but he just said sweet dreams babe ill talk to you tomorrow and that was it.
i hope i am just being paranoid about this...im just so worried that he doesnt enjoy it with me. Does he seem like he doesnt like it? How could I tell if he does or not? Plus, is that enough to make a guy uninterested in you and think about breaking up or are guys willing to keep trying until it gets better? Help me out here, i need some opinions and advice please!