hanging by a thread

forever_scarred · 04-26-2008, 05:11 PM

've destroyed m relationship w/ my boyfriend Abdo, I've destroyed the friendship i had w/ people from school (wont get a reply from anyone) but i think i worst is - I've destroyed my spirit -

ive had enough of all that -- trying to find/buy a gun or something to kill myself quick.......goodbye dark, depressing, cruel world.....

skatealexia · 04-26-2008, 05:28 PM

Please don't kill yourself. You have so much to bring to the world, and as for your friends, they can't really be your friends, if they don't reply, I'd say go find some new ones

Can I ask, how old are you?

coolblue · 04-26-2008, 05:56 PM

Commit suicide for them? Don't be comic. A Boyfriend, A friend, and a blown out spirit... All of them can be got again. But if you die, you will never come back. The only problem that you get helpless is die. The others can be solved...

forever_scarred · 04-26-2008, 06:23 PM

thnx for replying - i'm 19 -- and actually the friends, boyfriend and spirit are only half the problem -- the other is grief from my moms death -- i cant live w/ myself anymore.

forever_scarred · 04-26-2008, 07:11 PM

true, my mom wouldnt want me to die but....BUT i dont sleep well anymore, i have constant throbbing, agonizing pain in my heart and soul, i dont eat barely anything and when i do im sick. And when i actually get to sleep i have horrible nightmares bout her lying in the ******* bed, dying....i need her badly - dads already gone -- i need her soo badly, so very badly....thats why i wanna do it -- ive tried the pills but they only make me sicker, they dont KILL me, they dont even KILL the pain....nothing kills the pain not even alcohol....

darkblue · 04-26-2008, 08:02 PM

Forever

The chest pain and aching can be caused by anxiety. This could be due to stresses in your life.

Things may seem unmanagable now, but you have to think ahead - it won't always be like this.

Take things one at a time. Use this forum to vent and overcome your problems - but promise to yourself and to us that you won't harm yourself. You can overcome all.

forever_scarred · 04-26-2008, 08:03 PM

i cant promise anything -- between the pills and the cutting...idk

darkblue · 04-27-2008, 06:26 AM

Forever,

Make a start on telling us about your problems.

A problem shared is a problem halved.

forever_scarred · 04-27-2008, 02:22 PM

i guess most of my problems revolve around guilt and anger i feel over my moms death last june from ovarian cancer -- i watched her die and it did something to me -- it took the "normal me" and place a black hole in the spot -- i plunge deep into the black hole most nites and sometimes during the days -- i want her back soo ******** bad -- i need her...

sunset sun rise lover · 06-12-2008, 11:01 PM

Im Sorry Sweetie

04-26-2008, 05:11 PM	#1
forever_scarred Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: the underworld Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 53	hanging by a thread 've destroyed m relationship w/ my boyfriend Abdo, I've destroyed the friendship i had w/ people from school (wont get a reply from anyone) but i think i worst is - I've destroyed my spirit - ive had enough of all that -- trying to find/buy a gun or something to kill myself quick.......goodbye dark, depressing, cruel world.....

04-26-2008, 05:28 PM	#2
skatealexia Offline Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: England. Gender: Female Age: 17 Posts: 61	Please don't kill yourself. You have so much to bring to the world, and as for your friends, they can't really be your friends, if they don't reply, I'd say go find some new ones Can I ask, how old are you? __________________ && You Make Me Feel Out Of My Element, Like I'm Walking On Broken Glass.

04-26-2008, 08:02 PM	#6
darkblue Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Glasgow, Scotland. Gender: Male Posts: 5,085	Forever The chest pain and aching can be caused by anxiety. This could be due to stresses in your life. Things may seem unmanagable now, but you have to think ahead - it won't always be like this. Take things one at a time. Use this forum to vent and overcome your problems - but promise to yourself and to us that you won't harm yourself. You can overcome all. __________________ _________________ Aut vincere aut mori. "Whoever loves; becomes humble. Those who love have, so to speak, pawned a part of their narcissism." - Sigmund Freud Man is nothing else but that which he makes of himself. That is the first principle of existentialism - J.P. Sartre

04-27-2008, 06:26 AM	#8
darkblue Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Glasgow, Scotland. Gender: Male Posts: 5,085	Forever, Make a start on telling us about your problems. A problem shared is a problem halved. __________________ _________________ Aut vincere aut mori. "Whoever loves; becomes humble. Those who love have, so to speak, pawned a part of their narcissism." - Sigmund Freud Man is nothing else but that which he makes of himself. That is the first principle of existentialism - J.P. Sartre

06-12-2008, 11:01 PM	#10
sunset sun rise lover Offline Bronze Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: Cottonwood Gender: Female Age: 19 Posts: 209	Im Sorry Sweetie __________________ Hey my realationship is back on top and i couldn't be happier i love this woman and i missed her are hearts choose each other now all we need to do is have her follow what her heart is saying .

04-26-2008, 05:56 PM	#3
coolblue Offline Join Date: Apr 2008 Gender: Male Age: 26 Posts: 52	Commit suicide for them? Don't be comic. A Boyfriend, A friend, and a blown out spirit... All of them can be got again. But if you die, you will never come back. The only problem that you get helpless is die. The others can be solved...

04-26-2008, 06:23 PM	#4
forever_scarred Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: the underworld Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 53	thnx for replying - i'm 19 -- and actually the friends, boyfriend and spirit are only half the problem -- the other is grief from my moms death -- i cant live w/ myself anymore.

04-26-2008, 07:11 PM	#5
forever_scarred Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: the underworld Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 53	true, my mom wouldnt want me to die but....BUT i dont sleep well anymore, i have constant throbbing, agonizing pain in my heart and soul, i dont eat barely anything and when i do im sick. And when i actually get to sleep i have horrible nightmares bout her lying in the ******* bed, dying....i need her badly - dads already gone -- i need her soo badly, so very badly....thats why i wanna do it -- ive tried the pills but they only make me sicker, they dont KILL me, they dont even KILL the pain....nothing kills the pain not even alcohol....

04-26-2008, 08:03 PM	#7
forever_scarred Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: the underworld Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 53	i cant promise anything -- between the pills and the cutting...idk

04-27-2008, 02:22 PM	#9
forever_scarred Offline Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: the underworld Gender: Female Age: 21 Posts: 53	i guess most of my problems revolve around guilt and anger i feel over my moms death last june from ovarian cancer -- i watched her die and it did something to me -- it took the "normal me" and place a black hole in the spot -- i plunge deep into the black hole most nites and sometimes during the days -- i want her back soo ******** bad -- i need her...