I've been in a relationship with this girl I know from high school for the past 2 months. We are both 22. Recently, I had to leave for Sydney for college but thankfully, she's studying in Brisbane so the distance isn't that great and I've planned to visit her once a month.
We have agreed that the key to LDR is communication and although we IM very often, but since we don't spend our time in front of the computer all the time, we have decided that we should text each other often and reply our sms-es promptly. Normally, I would reply her text between a time frame of 15 to 20 minutes upon receiving it but when I'm driving, I would probably take up to 30 minutes. She made some noise but I thought... what the hell, maybe I should be more timely in my replies. Then I realize the moment she goes out to shopping, she would not bother to reply my text for hours straight. When I decided to call her, she would basically tell me cos' she was too busy shopping. Problem here is, I would take every effort to reply her in every possible situation but why doesn't she even take the slightest effort to do it to me in return. And when I simply don't reply here timely occasionally (prolly due to the fact Im driving.. ), she starts playing the blame game with me.
Another problem with her is that she is very insecure and is also suspicious of me being disloyal to her. I don't get it. I am not the sort of person and I really love her. But sometimes, her words really hurt me. She seems to be a pretty dense person and speaks in a really blunt way too. Once I asked her if she did missed me since we are far apart and she went like: whether i miss you or not, i think it is something i will have to get used to. -End of story.
It felt like a knife went through my heart. I couldn't believe with all the love with have, that was all she had to say!
She never bothers to ask if Im adjusting to the new environment well. I've come to realize she self pity alot and is more concerned about if Im cheating on her and stuff like that.
In fact just 15 minutes ago, I activated my camera and I had a ear phone on. She IMed and asked me if I was watching porn because I had the ear phones on for awhile.
She spends 90% of the time suspecting me and seriously although I know she loves me, Im really not feeling it at all. Instead I feel like Im always being charged with a crime I did not commit.
I've talked to her many times and she recognizes her problem and has always promised me that she is trying to change but it is so difficult and she just falls back to square one.
What do I do?