well i've never been a morning person, but lately i have been finding it increasingly difficult to get motivated and out of bed in the morning. i have a job that i love, and work with some amazing people so it's not the thought of work thats the problem.
i know breakfast is the most important meal of the day and should not be skipped, but i just can't bring myself to eat. if i make myself breakfast be it, toast, cereal or a piece of fruit, just looking at it makes me begin to urge to be sick. about the most i can manage is a small glass of juice.
i work 6 or 7 hours a day so usually get half hour lunchbreak, but i have a phobea of eating infront of anyone who's not my close family (this is because i have always been bullied for being a little chubby, and so have got it into my head that if people see me eat,they will think its all i do) so i usually just grab a glass of water and sit and read a book...or watch my colleagues eat!
so most days i don't eat something until 5pm, at the earliest. even then, having food infront of me makes me feel sick, and i can only manage to eat half of it. i can never eat desert either.
this morning however, i didn't have to start work until lunchtime and so had breakfast at about 9ish. then i started to feel really ill, with stomach cramps and then i was sick. (my mum thinks i suffer from IBS because i keep getting bad stomachs and am in incredible discomfort- almost to the point of blacking out with the pain.) and at work i kept getting feeling as if i was about to be sick, aswell as 'sweating' whilst doing nothing!
i'm also tired alot of the time, most days when i get home from work,i fall asleep on the sofa for about 1hr. however although i'm tired, i can't bear to sit still for too long as i get restless...sounds odd i know