I miss my nan.

sarey · 10-13-2007, 09:31 AM

I miss my nan so much.
She died in 2004, and it's like it happened yesterday.
I felt that she was the only one who loved me.
Who gave a damn.
She was there for me when I needed someone.
Regardless of her kidney failure, she was still there for me.
She hugged me when I was down, kissed me and turned my frown upside down.
I made her these cup of teas, and she always said to me 'you make the best cuppa's ever'
I miss her so much.
I miss her hugs, her kisses, her voice, ... her all together.
I want her back.
I'm not even over it.
It's been three years and I still sometimes... sometimes think 'maybe she's just on a very long holiday'...
Maybe ... just maybe.

I want her back.
So much.

Sorry.
Just ... wanted to get it out.
Since she's been gone, so much has changed. Not for the better either.

Raiden · 10-13-2007, 09:41 AM

I lost my dad in early 1999 (when I was 16). I empathize about loosing someone close to you.

It took me years to get over it...

**Hope75** · 10-13-2007, 11:08 AM

Hi Sarey,

It's very sweet that you loved your nan so much and that you still miss her.

My pa (grandpa) passed 20 years ago and some days it still feels like yesterday.

((HUGS))

She still knows you love her so much, and you probably feel her because she's still around you.

sarey · 10-13-2007, 11:13 AM

im really sorry about both your loses.

hm.
i miss everyone who has died now.
all the memories flooding back.

Cimmie · 10-13-2007, 11:18 AM

Hi Sarey

I lost my nan when I was 16 and I was devastated for a few years about it. It hurt very badly. Especially when grannies are so great!

I still miss mine. But you will recover from it. And she knew that you loved her and she loved you, and that is a great thing. Loving people gives us more empathy - I bet you have more empathy for older people than someone who didn't have the benefit of such a good relationship with a grandparent.

It's part of what makes you such a sensitive and smart girl.

Huggles

sarey · 10-13-2007, 11:24 AM

thanks Cimmie. i'm sorry for your loss too.
yeah, my nan was lovely. she used to cook fairy cakes with me and my sister too. i loved that. i used to always steal the mix when it was done and lick the bowl.
and when i was younger, she used to say 'oohh, well done' when i ate all her roast dinners, and i used to lick the plate clean LOL, and i still lick the plate clean.

i miss her.

Jeen · 10-13-2007, 11:47 AM

My nan cammed to life with me after I finished my studies, well she was like a mom and a friend to me, the food she made was the best. She never traveled in her life it was in 2004 I asked her if she wanted to have a trip to the UK with me. We spent two weeks just traveling and looking at every thing, it was like it was yesterday I can still see her and the way she smiled when I wanted a hug or a kiss.

She died last year and I do miss her allot.

But like she aways said : We all have to go no mater what your time is your time. Well when I hear her say those words I know she is in heaven.

**Hope75** · 10-14-2007, 03:34 PM

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Originally Posted by sarey

thanks Cimmie. i'm sorry for your loss too.
yeah, my nan was lovely. she used to cook fairy cakes with me and my sister too. i loved that. i used to always steal the mix when it was done and lick the bowl.
and when i was younger, she used to say 'oohh, well done' when i ate all her roast dinners, and i used to lick the plate clean LOL, and i still lick the plate clean.

i miss her.

Sarey,

Don't memories like that make you smile even if just for a minute?

Have you thought about doing some volunteering at a local nursing home or long term care facility?

I'll bet there are lots of grannies who'd love to spend time with you. You can play cards with them, just talk, spend time with them. It might bring some happiness to both your lives.

sarey · 10-14-2007, 05:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Hope75

Sarey,

Don't memories like that make you smile even if just for a minute?

Have you thought about doing some volunteering at a local nursing home or long term care facility?

I'll bet there are lots of grannies who'd love to spend time with you. You can play cards with them, just talk, spend time with them. It might bring some happiness to both your lives.

yeah
id love to do that
and yes
it does
it brings a big smile to my face

**Hope75** · 10-14-2007, 05:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by sarey

yeah
id love to do that
and yes
it does
it brings a big smile to my face

That's great!

Do you have any such centers near your home or a bus ride away?

I'll tell you what- I am a nurse and I work with a lot of senior citizens and they are some of the smartest, funniest, most honest, kindest, most engaging people I know. I really feel like my life is enriched by knowing them.

I bet you'd feel the same way.

10-13-2007, 09:31 AM	#1
sarey Offline Platinum Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: In the UK, somewhere... Gender: Female Posts: 1,438	I miss my nan. I miss my nan so much. She died in 2004, and it's like it happened yesterday. I felt that she was the only one who loved me. Who gave a damn. She was there for me when I needed someone. Regardless of her kidney failure, she was still there for me. She hugged me when I was down, kissed me and turned my frown upside down. I made her these cup of teas, and she always said to me 'you make the best cuppa's ever' I miss her so much. I miss her hugs, her kisses, her voice, ... her all together. I want her back. I'm not even over it. It's been three years and I still sometimes... sometimes think 'maybe she's just on a very long holiday'... Maybe ... just maybe. I want her back. So much. Sorry. Just ... wanted to get it out. Since she's been gone, so much has changed. Not for the better either.

10-13-2007, 11:08 AM	#3
Hope75 Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: kitteh ville Gender: Female Age: 33 Posts: 12,512	Hi Sarey, It's very sweet that you loved your nan so much and that you still miss her. My pa (grandpa) passed 20 years ago and some days it still feels like yesterday. ((HUGS)) She still knows you love her so much, and you probably feel her because she's still around you. __________________ Muffin cats need love too. Please refer to the forum rules before posting: http://www.enotalone.com/forum/forum-rules.php Mama to a beautiful baby girl born 6-25-09. :)

10-13-2007, 11:18 AM	#5
Cimmie Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: The Margins Gender: None Specified Posts: 1,714	Hi Sarey I lost my nan when I was 16 and I was devastated for a few years about it. It hurt very badly. Especially when grannies are so great! I still miss mine. But you will recover from it. And she knew that you loved her and she loved you, and that is a great thing. Loving people gives us more empathy - I bet you have more empathy for older people than someone who didn't have the benefit of such a good relationship with a grandparent. It's part of what makes you such a sensitive and smart girl. Huggles __________________ The paradox of love is that it liberates the spirit by binding it.

10-13-2007, 11:47 AM	#7
Jeen Offline Gold Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Within myself. Gender: Female Age: 39 Posts: 778	My nan cammed to life with me after I finished my studies, well she was like a mom and a friend to me, the food she made was the best. She never traveled in her life it was in 2004 I asked her if she wanted to have a trip to the UK with me. We spent two weeks just traveling and looking at every thing, it was like it was yesterday I can still see her and the way she smiled when I wanted a hug or a kiss. She died last year and I do miss her allot. But like she aways said : We all have to go no mater what your time is your time. Well when I hear her say those words I know she is in heaven. __________________ In everyday there is time to cry, smile, hope, believe, live, work, think, forget, love, dance, play, help, ask, 我不懂！and a million more. "I just have to do it"

10-13-2007, 09:41 AM	#2
Raiden Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: UK Gender: Male Age: 27 Posts: 1,183	I lost my dad in early 1999 (when I was 16). I empathize about loosing someone close to you. It took me years to get over it...

10-13-2007, 11:13 AM	#4
sarey Offline Platinum Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: In the UK, somewhere... Gender: Female Posts: 1,438	im really sorry about both your loses. hm. i miss everyone who has died now. all the memories flooding back.

10-13-2007, 11:24 AM	#6
sarey Offline Platinum Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: In the UK, somewhere... Gender: Female Posts: 1,438	thanks Cimmie. i'm sorry for your loss too. yeah, my nan was lovely. she used to cook fairy cakes with me and my sister too. i loved that. i used to always steal the mix when it was done and lick the bowl. and when i was younger, she used to say 'oohh, well done' when i ate all her roast dinners, and i used to lick the plate clean LOL, and i still lick the plate clean. i miss her.