My astrological sign is the gemini......ironic considering how I feel.

[Beginningandend]

Everyday the steps are easier to take. The pain is starting to subside, the anger has begun to wane, and I am actually starting to feel more content with my life.

And yet.........

I feel as if there is an internal struggle that has ripped my mind into two different realities. I feel as if I am one person with two personalities. One has hope, optimism, and feelings of understanding, compassion, mercy, empathy, and faith in myself and my future.

The other is the polar opposite. It holds my resentment, anger, guilt, depression, anxiety and apathy. This side doesn't see a future, does not see hope, and makes me feel lost.

I switch from one personality to the next, and they both seem to be in constant struggle. Is this how I'm supposed to feel? I often worry that there is something seriously wrong with me.....even though I've been told quite the contrary.

[macgyver4ever]

Same here. I'm not sure how much it has to do with being a Gemini, as it does going through a break up. The betrayal, the pain; you know you should feel one way, but on the inside feel completely different.

I guess it is normal because most of us feel that.....

[Murasaki]

Conflicting emotions of a breakup result from the heart lost in the struggle of the failed relationship and the attacment to the happy memories fighting with the brain that realizes the truth of the situation and the hope of the future. Your feelings are felt by virtually everyone that gets dumped by someone they cared about.

But guess what? It goes away. How wonderful, the fact that we can harbor such painful memories but that they subside. You're smart enough to realize that you're getting better and when you stop wondering if you're over your ex, you're over your ex. You're a remarkably strong individual--keep doing whatever it is that you're doing, maintain NC if that's what you've been up to, and you'll come out on top my brother. I don't even know who you are and I have faith in you, it speaks volumes! Good luck.

[russ978]

I'm a gemini too! And I have a twin brother!

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Gemini is the third sign of the Zodiac and associated with youth and versatility. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a sociable, fun-loving, versatile, lively, communicative, liberal, mentally active and friendly character. The Gemini person is logical, inquisitive, clever, whimsical, nimble, quick-witted, articulate, lively, active, curious, capable of multi-tasking, talkative, sociable and mercurial. A less developed Gemini is prone to moodiness, inconsistency, superficiality, restlessness and gossip.

Among medieval astrologers, Gemini was thought of as a fortunate sign, and its subjects were considered to possess the qualities of intense devotion, genius, largeness of mind, goodness, and liberality.

People that are gemini ROCK!