I was seeing my now ex-girlfriend for 6 years until she broke up with me this past April. After 6 years, she wanted to get engaged and I was hesitant. She finally got tired of waiting around for me.
I was hesitant because there were always things about her that bugged me and I thought perhaps she was not the one for me. However, now that she has been gone, I miss her so much. I'm a very picky, perfectionist, loner sort of person that isn't interested in a lot of friends. However, I'm realizing that this sort of lifestyle isn't very satisfying at all. I need to take the good with the bad and do a better job of accepting people.
I still intensely love her. Right now we are still friends and we see each other maybe once a month. I know she still loves me. However, she just can't bring herself to be my girlfriend again.
I finally signed up on match.com to try and meet some other people. However, after a month of it, it's not going very well. No one seems very interested in me and none of the girls I message are responding. My membership expires in 2 months and if it keeps going on like this, I won't renew my membership.
I just can't keep going on like this alone. I desperately want someone in my life. Tonight I made a pledge to God that if He doesn't give me some sign that there is something else out there for me, I'm going to propose to my ex-girlfriend. This post is basically physical evidence for that pledge.
I'll just have to see what happens. Everyone please hope the best for me.