She finally used the words "I honestly think we should start dating other people". Just prior to telling me about how incredibly busy and uncertain about things she is, which would seem to preclude dating other people.
I'm slowly getting better. I am. But I still need to have some kind of closure.
I've asked EXPLICITLY for her to tell me she doesn't love me. I've nearly begged. That's all I need to hear. If she doesn't have feelings for me, I can move on and get over things relatively quickly. But she won't do it.
And it still tears me up inside. She knows it, too.
Why won't she just tell me that?