No alcohol countdown

kate111 · 03-14-2007, 05:37 PM

I got drunk last night and totally lost control. I screamed at my exex whilst his girlfriend was there and started weeping uncontrollably.

I realised I have not been sober for a long time. I drink to make the anxiety stop and to take the pain away. Usually about 3-4 glasses a night.

I have lost control before. This isn't an isolated incident.

I feel very scared about what has happened. I am going to take one month break from any alcohol. This thread can be a countdown.

I want to go longer but fear any permanent vow I make I will not be able to keep.

Day 1.

**melrich** · 03-14-2007, 05:44 PM

It is great you have recognised this yourself. I am sure everyone here will try and support you. I'm sure you can do it and will feel so much better for it.

DN · 03-14-2007, 05:45 PM

Have you thought about going along to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting? They might be able to help you more than you are able to help yourself on your own.

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kate111 · 03-14-2007, 05:48 PM

Thanks for your support.

I really feel afraid of myself.

I don't want to admit my problem is so great that I need AA. I want to first try to tackle it on my own.

Eva:Gina · 03-14-2007, 05:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by kate111

I got drunk last night and totally lost control. I screamed at my exex whilst his girlfriend was there and started weeping uncontrollably.

I realised I have not been sober for a long time. I drink to make the anxiety stop and to take the pain away. Usually about 3-4 glasses a night.

I have lost control before. This isn't an isolated incident.

I feel very scared about what has happened. I am going to take one month break from any alcohol. This thread can be a countdown.

I want to go longer but fear any permanent vow I make I will not be able to keep.

Day 1.

I wish you all the luck in the world
I know EXACTLY what you are going through... I have been down this road many a time.

You need to find something to occupy yourself with

kate111 · 03-14-2007, 05:56 PM

What do you mean you have been down that road many a time?

adahy · 03-14-2007, 05:58 PM

It happens. Lots of people drink...both for pleasure and to take the edge off. Generally, it tends to spiral when you have an incident as you describe. In order to suppress guilt, people often drink even more. So, it is GOOD you are taking the responsible route!

I drink regularly, but I have rules. I don't engage in things which could become confrontational, emotional, etc. If someone is engaging me, I tell them I'll talk to them later about it (when I'm completely sober). Anybody that drinks regularly has been in your shoes! A person needs to keep themselves or their drinking under control.

kate111 · 03-14-2007, 06:03 PM

I really hope I have the strength to give it up.

I feel so ashamed. I don't know what to say to the people I abused.

Eva:Gina · 03-14-2007, 06:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by kate111

What do you mean you have been down that road many a time?

I am a blazing alcoholic.
I have hurt many people who care about me and embarrassed myself more times than I care to think about.

Ill be sober for a while, but then Ill get upset about something and alcohol is the only way to fix it. Then Ill keep drinking.

I had a beer last night, the 2 days before that were sober. Its really hard.

Put it this way, when I was living in Chch I would buy booze before I bought food.

Me and myself · 03-14-2007, 06:35 PM

Kate, I mada a selection of a few things you've wrote:

Quote:

I have lost control before. This isn't an isolated incident.

This is a clue that something's not right with you.

Quote:

I don't want to admit my problem is so great that I need AA. I want to first try to tackle it on my own.

You are doing one thing that is very common to all addicts: you are minimizing your problem.

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I feel so ashamed. I don't know what to say to the people I abused.

Deeply you know something's wrong with you. Compare the last quote with the second. Do you still think that your problem is not big enough?

I'm sorry to sound harsh but that's not my intention. That's just the way things are. I'm also an alcoholic and I've been trough all this process (in the AA as well some other recovery clinics) and I would like you to consider AA help (or other) if you can't deal with this problem on your own.
So that you know that you can do it too, I never though I could stop drinking...the fact is that I the last time I drunk alcohol it was 12 years ago.

03-14-2007, 05:37 PM	#1
kate111 Offline Member Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: london Age: 36 Posts: 1,454	No alcohol countdown I got drunk last night and totally lost control. I screamed at my exex whilst his girlfriend was there and started weeping uncontrollably. I realised I have not been sober for a long time. I drink to make the anxiety stop and to take the pain away. Usually about 3-4 glasses a night. I have lost control before. This isn't an isolated incident. I feel very scared about what has happened. I am going to take one month break from any alcohol. This thread can be a countdown. I want to go longer but fear any permanent vow I make I will not be able to keep. Day 1.

03-14-2007, 05:45 PM	#3
DN Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Ontario, Canada Gender: Male Posts: 23,441	Have you thought about going along to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting? They might be able to help you more than you are able to help yourself on your own. [Only registered and activated users can see links. ] __________________ Immaturity is not defined by him not doing what you want him to do. Hartman's Law of Prescriptivist Retaliation: "any article or statement about correct grammar, punctuation, or spelling is bound to contain at least one eror".

03-14-2007, 05:44 PM	#2
melrich Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Jul 2003 Gender: Male Posts: 8,501	It is great you have recognised this yourself. I am sure everyone here will try and support you. I'm sure you can do it and will feel so much better for it.

03-14-2007, 05:48 PM	#4
kate111 Offline Member Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: london Age: 36 Posts: 1,454	Thanks for your support. I really feel afraid of myself. I don't want to admit my problem is so great that I need AA. I want to first try to tackle it on my own.

03-14-2007, 05:56 PM	#6
kate111 Offline Member Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: london Age: 36 Posts: 1,454	What do you mean you have been down that road many a time?

03-14-2007, 05:58 PM	#7
adahy Offline Silver Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 309	It happens. Lots of people drink...both for pleasure and to take the edge off. Generally, it tends to spiral when you have an incident as you describe. In order to suppress guilt, people often drink even more. So, it is GOOD you are taking the responsible route! I drink regularly, but I have rules. I don't engage in things which could become confrontational, emotional, etc. If someone is engaging me, I tell them I'll talk to them later about it (when I'm completely sober). Anybody that drinks regularly has been in your shoes! A person needs to keep themselves or their drinking under control.

03-14-2007, 06:03 PM	#8
kate111 Offline Member Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: london Age: 36 Posts: 1,454	I really hope I have the strength to give it up. I feel so ashamed. I don't know what to say to the people I abused.