thick skinned? i cant do it

dpressedone89 · 07-13-2006, 04:13 AM

I havent cut in about a year or so, i was really bad. deep and all over the place and lots of them. the other day i went to try and i couldnt. the pain isnt and issue and never has been really but i couldnt break the skin. i had my box cutter, (ive never cut with it before if that makes a difference) and i tried but it didnt work so i pushed harder, i had to push like i was cutting a box to get even a scratch.

so whats up with that and how can i fix it? could it have been a safety blade or has my skin thickened of something? i heard it softens when wet, is that a possibility, it just isnt working and i need help thank you
-stitcheS

nottoogreen · 07-13-2006, 04:32 AM

Well, from a technical perspective, you perhaps need a new blade as the old one may have been blunted as I do not think your skin is at fault.

That said, why are you here?

You should get yourself to do something. Focus on positive activities. I gave you links to websites. You can find others.

Write poems.
Draw artwork or a painting.
Make an icon.
Learn learn learn learn.

Whatever - once you look at that, you can say to yourself I did that. Post poems here. Link graphics to a post in Off-topic, we look at it and give you feedback.

You bloody have no reason to damage yourself on top of what others did to you.

You can do it, get going!

dpressedone89 · 07-13-2006, 04:41 AM

ok well it was a new blade but its my box cutter for work so it could be a safety blade but i dont know

i have writers block at the moment
im gettting a new notebook and sketch pad tomorro
and im working on a painting but its terrible because its on the side of an old dresser pannel, i dont have a canvas lol
what you mean make an icon?

nottoogreen · 07-13-2006, 04:44 AM

You can do paintings and graphics with your computer. Research it!

Icons you can research too.

Keep busy!

dpressedone89 · 07-13-2006, 04:47 AM

im trying to put my energy into my art instead of self destruction but its not easy when all i have is a pen no paper and a dollar and sixty three cents lol ill check into that stuff though thanks
-stitcheS

nottoogreen · 07-13-2006, 04:52 AM

Buddy, you need alternatives to what hurts you. Lot's of alternatives. You should keep yourself so busy that you have no time to think of anything negative.

Howabout ask google random questions whenever you are "grumpy". Can be interesting.

PRSOV · 07-13-2006, 05:07 AM

I agree with nottoogreen, if you sit around then your general attitude towards everything is going to become more and more negative. Find yourself active things to do, that will make yourself feel better in the long run, like small personal goals I guess. Anything that will stop you from thinking negatively and giving you a good positive focus on life... and positive energy.

Do you do much excercise? I find sometimes that does me a lot better than just sitting in my room making a model or creating a drawing. Keep your mind active non-stop!

The thought of you cutting your wrist with a razorblade is making me feel dizzy

We are here whenever you need to talk or vent, just please do not hurt yourself like this. It will not solve your problems in the long-term.

PR

dpressedone89 · 07-13-2006, 05:14 AM

if it counts for anything, through my own incompitence i have yet to cut and i dont really feel like it anymore, what are some good activities ?

**arwen** · 07-13-2006, 05:59 AM

Two of my friends are ex-cutters. Both of them go running outside if they feel the urge. If you don't feel like anything creative, sports are a good alternative. I agree with nottogreen, about a more positive focus. It's difficult and I have to tell myself day-in-day out, but you can train yourself to focus in a different way.

If you find yourself in a low place, instead of cutting or looking for answers why you can't cut, etc, focus on things that REALLY make you feel better. Cutting doesn't make you feel better, it merely moves the pain from mental pain to physical pain. I am amazed how something small like taking a long shower or sitting outside in the park with a book can relief my anxiety and depressed feelings.

You are a very creative and smart boy, I have read your poems and I am sure they will help you to get rid of the bad feelings.

Ilse

dpressedone89 · 07-13-2006, 06:12 AM

running is a great idea except its 3 am here so i cant do that now and i need something to help at the moment, thank you though and ill try that in the future

07-13-2006, 04:13 AM	#1
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	thick skinned? i cant do it I havent cut in about a year or so, i was really bad. deep and all over the place and lots of them. the other day i went to try and i couldnt. the pain isnt and issue and never has been really but i couldnt break the skin. i had my box cutter, (ive never cut with it before if that makes a difference) and i tried but it didnt work so i pushed harder, i had to push like i was cutting a box to get even a scratch. so whats up with that and how can i fix it? could it have been a safety blade or has my skin thickened of something? i heard it softens when wet, is that a possibility, it just isnt working and i need help thank you -stitcheS __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~

07-13-2006, 04:41 AM	#3
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	ok well it was a new blade but its my box cutter for work so it could be a safety blade but i dont know i have writers block at the moment im gettting a new notebook and sketch pad tomorro and im working on a painting but its terrible because its on the side of an old dresser pannel, i dont have a canvas lol what you mean make an icon? __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~

07-13-2006, 04:47 AM	#5
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	im trying to put my energy into my art instead of self destruction but its not easy when all i have is a pen no paper and a dollar and sixty three cents lol ill check into that stuff though thanks -stitcheS __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~

07-13-2006, 05:07 AM	#7
PRSOV Offline Silver Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Australia Gender: Male Posts: 1,301	I agree with nottoogreen, if you sit around then your general attitude towards everything is going to become more and more negative. Find yourself active things to do, that will make yourself feel better in the long run, like small personal goals I guess. Anything that will stop you from thinking negatively and giving you a good positive focus on life... and positive energy. Do you do much excercise? I find sometimes that does me a lot better than just sitting in my room making a model or creating a drawing. Keep your mind active non-stop! The thought of you cutting your wrist with a razorblade is making me feel dizzy We are here whenever you need to talk or vent, just please do not hurt yourself like this. It will not solve your problems in the long-term. PR __________________ Learn from other people's make, you don't have time to make them all yourself - Usher

07-13-2006, 05:14 AM	#8
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	if it counts for anything, through my own incompitence i have yet to cut and i dont really feel like it anymore, what are some good activities ? __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~

07-13-2006, 04:32 AM	#2
nottoogreen Offline Join Date: May 2006 Gender: Male Posts: 2,530	Well, from a technical perspective, you perhaps need a new blade as the old one may have been blunted as I do not think your skin is at fault. That said, why are you here? You should get yourself to do something. Focus on positive activities. I gave you links to websites. You can find others. Write poems. Draw artwork or a painting. Make an icon. Learn learn learn learn. Whatever - once you look at that, you can say to yourself I did that. Post poems here. Link graphics to a post in Off-topic, we look at it and give you feedback. You bloody have no reason to damage yourself on top of what others did to you. You can do it, get going!

07-13-2006, 04:44 AM	#4
nottoogreen Offline Join Date: May 2006 Gender: Male Posts: 2,530	You can do paintings and graphics with your computer. Research it! Icons you can research too. Keep busy!

07-13-2006, 04:52 AM	#6
nottoogreen Offline Join Date: May 2006 Gender: Male Posts: 2,530	Buddy, you need alternatives to what hurts you. Lot's of alternatives. You should keep yourself so busy that you have no time to think of anything negative. Howabout ask google random questions whenever you are "grumpy". Can be interesting.

07-13-2006, 05:59 AM	#9
arwen Online Super Moderator Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The Netherlands Gender: Female Age: 29 Posts: 5,396	Two of my friends are ex-cutters. Both of them go running outside if they feel the urge. If you don't feel like anything creative, sports are a good alternative. I agree with nottogreen, about a more positive focus. It's difficult and I have to tell myself day-in-day out, but you can train yourself to focus in a different way. If you find yourself in a low place, instead of cutting or looking for answers why you can't cut, etc, focus on things that REALLY make you feel better. Cutting doesn't make you feel better, it merely moves the pain from mental pain to physical pain. I am amazed how something small like taking a long shower or sitting outside in the park with a book can relief my anxiety and depressed feelings. You are a very creative and smart boy, I have read your poems and I am sure they will help you to get rid of the bad feelings. Ilse __________________ You always* have a choice.* 11 February 2010: [Only registered and activated users can see links. ]* is due!* Please see the forum rules for posting on enotalone.com

07-13-2006, 06:12 AM	#10
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	running is a great idea except its 3 am here so i cant do that now and i need something to help at the moment, thank you though and ill try that in the future __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~