Im going to try again to get help!

AnotherBrokenDoll · 04-18-2006, 01:29 AM

Well last time i was as bad as this i almost killed myself! Once again i've lost myself, once again im so confused. So this time i dont want to let it get so far. Lately i've been cutting myself so much more. I mean so much more! But at least this time it will be better. This sunday i'm talking to someone about it. I need help this time. I dont want to push anyone away! Yet still im so scared. I no myself well enough to know this one thing, well i finally ask for help i push people away. Any idea of how to stop??? Please i want to stop doing this i do want to get help but i know i'll just say im fine and ok once the person i talk to becomes to close.

Emotional · 04-18-2006, 01:37 AM

Keep yourself busy...do you have any hobbies? anything to distract
you from cutting can help majorly...
Are you at all social? Sometimes opening up to people and openly
holding a conversation with someone can build your confidence
and theres, you can become friends even, just by making a little
baby step...like talking to another person.

Hanging out with the family can be a big growing step as well...

but if its gotten to the point where you do not see any reason to
live, its not to late, just pick yourself back up..God only gives you
what you can handle!!

AnotherBrokenDoll · 04-18-2006, 05:38 AM

Thanks heaps! Yeah i do have a few hobbies but i when i need to cut i always find a way! My best friend comes to my house and each time she does she finds a new blade and takes it and i always have one somewhere! I dont know how im gonna handle this! I hope i'll go through iwth it!

AnotherBrokenDoll · 04-23-2006, 10:35 PM

wow what a surprise i stuffed up again!!! I didnt go through with it... I think that was my last chance and i blew it.

zcloud · 04-28-2006, 02:49 AM

remove all sharp objects from the home on a good day! Replace all steak knives with dull butter knives, real scissors with blunt or plastic kiddie scissors. Choose another annoying, but not life threatening habit so that your obsessive-compulsive tendancies can manifest. Check and make sure the door is locked 3-10 times, each time you leave. Wash your feet excessively, or count potatoe chips or pretzels, destroy jars of peanut butter with spoons. Try to take back control of your life in small ways other than the cutting. Focus your anger on world hunger, mean people, somthing other than yourself. Don't hurt anybody or yourself, try to be careful. Examine your negative thoughts, are they outside of you? If not place them outside, keep distancing them. Relax, breathe deeply. Once you feel better create something, paint, sculpt or sculpt with peanut butter. Your creative fun ideas should be more outrageous than what you have currently chosen as an outlet for stress.
If that helps, write a book and help others. If not, call a hotline daily and talk with a real person

Moon Goddess · 05-12-2006, 08:57 AM

Rozi!,
You are getting help, you are opening up right here on eNotAlone, people are here to help you. I agree with zcloud, remove any sharp objects from your reach. Think of what makes you cut and try to fix that, but take it one problem at a time don't go head over heels. Whenever your stressed take a deep breath and try and relax. I know it's not easy but thing will always get better. Check out some self help books or sites. If you want PM me about it and I can give you some sites if your interested.

Take Care, MG

...JustMe... · 05-14-2006, 05:50 AM

I think you should talk to someone. I feel your hurt, I think you should talk to your best friend about it, or someone close that you confiance (désolé, i dont know the english word for confiance... umm it like troost... something like that). I understand how "removing sharp things from house" wouldn't work (though it was gud idea, no offence), and I like idea of your best friend taking the blades, all I can suggest is talk to someone, seek help.

AnotherBrokenDoll · 05-15-2006, 04:24 AM

Thanks JustMe and i do talk to my best friend. But i don't want to bring her down. She has to live life to!

blueangel · 05-18-2006, 03:36 PM

You need...-sniff, sniff- a HUG! ::hugs you:: ( tell me if I'm squeezing too hard!)

Sometimes I like to just... play. Like, I roleplay ^. Act out little things and have fun.

::starts running off cliff:: Weeee! This is a good way to end my problems!

(now, you come in. Save me. Let's play. I know it's weird but seriously, sometimes it's the only thing that cheers me up)

blueangel · 05-18-2006, 03:42 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ...JustMe...

I think you should talk to someone. I feel your hurt, I think you should talk to your best friend about it, or someone close that you confiance (désolé, i dont know the english word for confiance... umm it like troost... something like that). I understand how "removing sharp things from house" wouldn't work (though it was gud idea, no offence), and I like idea of your best friend taking the blades, all I can suggest is talk to someone, seek help.

Confide

Trust

Wow, I can imagine your accent. French accents are so cool.

04-18-2006, 01:29 AM	#1
AnotherBrokenDoll Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: In a world you will never know of. Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 1,735	Im going to try again to get help! Well last time i was as bad as this i almost killed myself! Once again i've lost myself, once again im so confused. So this time i dont want to let it get so far. Lately i've been cutting myself so much more. I mean so much more! But at least this time it will be better. This sunday i'm talking to someone about it. I need help this time. I dont want to push anyone away! Yet still im so scared. I no myself well enough to know this one thing, well i finally ask for help i push people away. Any idea of how to stop??? Please i want to stop doing this i do want to get help but i know i'll just say im fine and ok once the person i talk to becomes to close. __________________ There are days when i'm ok, And for a moment, For a moment I find hope. But there are days when i'm not ok, And i need your help, So i'm letting go. You should know, You're not on your own, These secrets are walls that keep us alone, I don't know when but i know now, Together we'll make it through somehow, Together we'll make it through somehow.

04-18-2006, 05:38 AM	#3
AnotherBrokenDoll Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: In a world you will never know of. Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 1,735	Thanks heaps! Yeah i do have a few hobbies but i when i need to cut i always find a way! My best friend comes to my house and each time she does she finds a new blade and takes it and i always have one somewhere! I dont know how im gonna handle this! I hope i'll go through iwth it! __________________ There are days when i'm ok, And for a moment, For a moment I find hope. But there are days when i'm not ok, And i need your help, So i'm letting go. You should know, You're not on your own, These secrets are walls that keep us alone, I don't know when but i know now, Together we'll make it through somehow, Together we'll make it through somehow.

04-23-2006, 10:35 PM	#4
AnotherBrokenDoll Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: In a world you will never know of. Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 1,735	wow what a surprise i stuffed up again!!! I didnt go through with it... I think that was my last chance and i blew it. __________________ There are days when i'm ok, And for a moment, For a moment I find hope. But there are days when i'm not ok, And i need your help, So i'm letting go. You should know, You're not on your own, These secrets are walls that keep us alone, I don't know when but i know now, Together we'll make it through somehow, Together we'll make it through somehow.

05-12-2006, 08:57 AM	#6
Moon Goddess Offline Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Puerto Rico Gender: Female Posts: 318	Rozi!, You are getting help, you are opening up right here on eNotAlone, people are here to help you. I agree with zcloud, remove any sharp objects from your reach. Think of what makes you cut and try to fix that, but take it one problem at a time don't go head over heels. Whenever your stressed take a deep breath and try and relax. I know it's not easy but thing will always get better. Check out some self help books or sites. If you want PM me about it and I can give you some sites if your interested. Take Care, MG __________________ I can't change who I am Not this time I won't lie to keep u near me And in this short life There's no time to waste on giving up My Love Wasn't Enough ...It never is... Feel free to PM me anytime!

05-15-2006, 04:24 AM	#8
AnotherBrokenDoll Offline Platinum Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: In a world you will never know of. Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 1,735	Thanks JustMe and i do talk to my best friend. But i don't want to bring her down. She has to live life to! __________________ There are days when i'm ok, And for a moment, For a moment I find hope. But there are days when i'm not ok, And i need your help, So i'm letting go. You should know, You're not on your own, These secrets are walls that keep us alone, I don't know when but i know now, Together we'll make it through somehow, Together we'll make it through somehow.

04-18-2006, 01:37 AM	#2
Emotional Offline Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Age: 21 Posts: 743	Keep yourself busy...do you have any hobbies? anything to distract you from cutting can help majorly... Are you at all social? Sometimes opening up to people and openly holding a conversation with someone can build your confidence and theres, you can become friends even, just by making a little baby step...like talking to another person. Hanging out with the family can be a big growing step as well... but if its gotten to the point where you do not see any reason to live, its not to late, just pick yourself back up..God only gives you what you can handle!!

04-28-2006, 02:49 AM	#5
zcloud Offline Member Join Date: Sep 2005 Posts: 75	remove all sharp objects from the home on a good day! Replace all steak knives with dull butter knives, real scissors with blunt or plastic kiddie scissors. Choose another annoying, but not life threatening habit so that your obsessive-compulsive tendancies can manifest. Check and make sure the door is locked 3-10 times, each time you leave. Wash your feet excessively, or count potatoe chips or pretzels, destroy jars of peanut butter with spoons. Try to take back control of your life in small ways other than the cutting. Focus your anger on world hunger, mean people, somthing other than yourself. Don't hurt anybody or yourself, try to be careful. Examine your negative thoughts, are they outside of you? If not place them outside, keep distancing them. Relax, breathe deeply. Once you feel better create something, paint, sculpt or sculpt with peanut butter. Your creative fun ideas should be more outrageous than what you have currently chosen as an outlet for stress. If that helps, write a book and help others. If not, call a hotline daily and talk with a real person

05-14-2006, 05:50 AM	#7
...JustMe... Offline Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: Paris Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 3	I think you should talk to someone. I feel your hurt, I think you should talk to your best friend about it, or someone close that you confiance (désolé, i dont know the english word for confiance... umm it like troost... something like that). I understand how "removing sharp things from house" wouldn't work (though it was gud idea, no offence), and I like idea of your best friend taking the blades, all I can suggest is talk to someone, seek help.

05-18-2006, 03:36 PM	#9
blueangel Offline Platinum Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: Pretty Pennsylvania Gender: Female Age: 19 Posts: 1,349	You need...-sniff, sniff- a HUG! ::hugs you:: ( tell me if I'm squeezing too hard!) Sometimes I like to just... play. Like, I roleplay ^. Act out little things and have fun. ::starts running off cliff:: Weeee! This is a good way to end my problems! (now, you come in. Save me. Let's play. I know it's weird but seriously, sometimes it's the only thing that cheers me up)