Depressed but weird

perfectliljewel · 07-19-2005, 01:06 PM

i know im depressed but i dont know why. i have been cutting doing drugs, drinking and ODn on my pain pills. its weird though because i dont feel any emotion at all. i just know im not myself. i dont laugh at jokes i dont care if some1 gets hurt and when my boyfriend says i love you theres nothing. i can tell he is irratated from it and i want to feel things again. can you help me please why am i so emotionless and what can i do to stop it???

**arwen** · 07-19-2005, 01:15 PM

Hey girl,

First off, I am happy to hear you are not taking substances anymore. Are you on antidepressants? If so, feeling 'flattened' (happy nor sad, just flat) this can be due to these kind of meds. Feeling flat can also be a symptom of depression itself. You simply stop caring, and start feeling like a zombie.

I wish I could take this away from you, but the only thing I can suggest to you is to seek some counselling.

Do you think that deep-down, you might be scared to feel things?

Take care,

Ilse.

perfectliljewel · 07-19-2005, 01:19 PM

im not on anti depressents i am on pain pills b/c i had knee surgery and i had a shrink but he kinda gave up. i think sumtimes my bf just wants to slap me to wake me up and at the same time he just wants to hold me and nvr let go and try 2 make it all go away. i think my last emotion was in october when my dog that i treated like my son died.

Alabama · 07-19-2005, 02:38 PM

It's probably your body still adjusting to the drugs wearing off. Since your body isn't used to you not taking drugs, then it can take time for that to adjust. Thus, you not feeling really any emotions, could be a side effect. Just give it some time and hopefully things will be better. Good luck!

perfectliljewel · 07-19-2005, 02:45 PM

but im still doing drugs off and on.... its weird

**arwen** · 07-19-2005, 03:23 PM

Which kind of drugs are you doing? Do you think you're capable of stopping all together? You are so young, it scares me that you are dealing with these heavy things. If you feel there are things you can't talk about here, don't hesitate to send me a pm, ok?

As for the drugs, I think the on and off taking can really mess up the chemical balances in your system (such as serotonin and noradrenalin-- both VITAL in the way you feel).

I assume you take these drugs to escape a certain feeling, and strongly suggest you seek counselling to be supervised and guided.

Ilse.

perfectliljewel · 07-19-2005, 03:31 PM

i have "tried" a few illegal drugs. n i have bn ODn on clonazepam,tramadol, mobic,and cyclobenzaphrine HCL

**arwen** · 07-19-2005, 03:51 PM

When is the last time you took an overdose of any of those?

How did you stop taking overdoses, and were you used to take too many of those substances at a frequent (say daily, weekly) basis?

Ilse.

perfectliljewel · 07-19-2005, 03:54 PM

i OD on them like every time something big hits me.. its like a replacement for an emotion like if ex boyfriend would threaten to kill himself i would OD on all my meds and sometimes go to my friend, Craigs house and do drugs. I guess my body is used to it by now but i dont know

Davidsan · 07-19-2005, 04:03 PM

u say to replace the emotion of him killin him self so i bet if u try stopin u will feel emotions well wat do ino ive never dun drugs and never will

07-19-2005, 01:06 PM	#1
perfectliljewel Offline Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: sometimes on earth... but usually im floating around Gender: Female Posts: 558	Depressed but weird i know im depressed but i dont know why. i have been cutting doing drugs, drinking and ODn on my pain pills. its weird though because i dont feel any emotion at all. i just know im not myself. i dont laugh at jokes i dont care if some1 gets hurt and when my boyfriend says i love you theres nothing. i can tell he is irratated from it and i want to feel things again. can you help me please why am i so emotionless and what can i do to stop it???

07-19-2005, 01:15 PM	#2
arwen Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The Netherlands Gender: Female Age: 29 Posts: 5,396	Hey girl, First off, I am happy to hear you are not taking substances anymore. Are you on antidepressants? If so, feeling 'flattened' (happy nor sad, just flat) this can be due to these kind of meds. Feeling flat can also be a symptom of depression itself. You simply stop caring, and start feeling like a zombie. I wish I could take this away from you, but the only thing I can suggest to you is to seek some counselling. Do you think that deep-down, you might be scared to feel things? Take care, Ilse. __________________ You always* have a choice.* 11 February 2010: [Only registered and activated users can see links. ]* is due!* Please see the forum rules for posting on enotalone.com

07-19-2005, 02:38 PM	#4
Alabama Offline Bronze Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: USA Gender: Male Age: 23 Posts: 1,408	It's probably your body still adjusting to the drugs wearing off. Since your body isn't used to you not taking drugs, then it can take time for that to adjust. Thus, you not feeling really any emotions, could be a side effect. Just give it some time and hopefully things will be better. Good luck! __________________ Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb. Sir Winston Churchill "If you have no confidence in self, you are twice defeated in the race of life. With confidence, you have won before you have started." ~ Marcus Garvey

07-19-2005, 03:23 PM	#6
arwen Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The Netherlands Gender: Female Age: 29 Posts: 5,396	Which kind of drugs are you doing? Do you think you're capable of stopping all together? You are so young, it scares me that you are dealing with these heavy things. If you feel there are things you can't talk about here, don't hesitate to send me a pm, ok? As for the drugs, I think the on and off taking can really mess up the chemical balances in your system (such as serotonin and noradrenalin-- both VITAL in the way you feel). I assume you take these drugs to escape a certain feeling, and strongly suggest you seek counselling to be supervised and guided. Ilse. __________________ You always* have a choice.* 11 February 2010: [Only registered and activated users can see links. ]* is due!* Please see the forum rules for posting on enotalone.com

07-19-2005, 03:51 PM	#8
arwen Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The Netherlands Gender: Female Age: 29 Posts: 5,396	When is the last time you took an overdose of any of those? How did you stop taking overdoses, and were you used to take too many of those substances at a frequent (say daily, weekly) basis? Ilse. __________________ You always* have a choice.* 11 February 2010: [Only registered and activated users can see links. ]* is due!* Please see the forum rules for posting on enotalone.com

07-19-2005, 01:19 PM	#3
perfectliljewel Offline Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: sometimes on earth... but usually im floating around Gender: Female Posts: 558	im not on anti depressents i am on pain pills b/c i had knee surgery and i had a shrink but he kinda gave up. i think sumtimes my bf just wants to slap me to wake me up and at the same time he just wants to hold me and nvr let go and try 2 make it all go away. i think my last emotion was in october when my dog that i treated like my son died.

07-19-2005, 02:45 PM	#5
perfectliljewel Offline Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: sometimes on earth... but usually im floating around Gender: Female Posts: 558	but im still doing drugs off and on.... its weird

07-19-2005, 03:31 PM	#7
perfectliljewel Offline Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: sometimes on earth... but usually im floating around Gender: Female Posts: 558	i have "tried" a few illegal drugs. n i have bn ODn on clonazepam,tramadol, mobic,and cyclobenzaphrine HCL

07-19-2005, 03:54 PM	#9
perfectliljewel Offline Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: sometimes on earth... but usually im floating around Gender: Female Posts: 558	i OD on them like every time something big hits me.. its like a replacement for an emotion like if ex boyfriend would threaten to kill himself i would OD on all my meds and sometimes go to my friend, Craigs house and do drugs. I guess my body is used to it by now but i dont know

07-19-2005, 04:03 PM	#10
Davidsan Offline Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: canada Age: 17 Posts: 34	u say to replace the emotion of him killin him self so i bet if u try stopin u will feel emotions well wat do ino ive never dun drugs and never will