I've been debating this topic in my mind for as long I can remember. I think I may be lacking the normal emotions that people have for thier immediate family. I mean, I don't cry at funerals and Im not thrilled when a child is born. (all this within the family) My uncle died from aids and I didn't shed a tear. My sister says she wished she was as "strong" as i am because she cries over everything, even certain commercials stirs her up.
Get this, that when any relative of the family hugs me, i don't hug them back of the hug is really weak. I don't smile as much as I think I should when I'm with them and I hardly say anything.
But here's the real twist, I can be "emotional" around my friends and this one teacher Ive known for five years. I can tell them everything and Im the one doing the hugging! It's like I'm related to them in a sense. Im more interested in thier family than I am my own most of the time. Is my brain completely out of touch with reality? Did something happen to me as a child? I can tell you this that when I was five my mom allowed me and my sister to be verbally and physically abused by my once stepdad. Here's a story.... We had five minutes to eat these huge hamburgers and if we didn't finish we would be spanked. He actually set these alarm clocks on the kitchen table....when we got out the the bath, he wanted to smell us to make sure we washed off. There's a ton I can tell you.
none of those incidents bug me at all, in fact it's kind of funny looking back on it. I have to say that my dad is the only one i "talk" to , but still have a significant amout of trouble showing sincere emotions......this is all too confusing. thanks for reading though, all commets welcome