a reason to live/my success story

dpressedone89 · 01-22-2005, 12:30 AM

hi, as most of you know i used to be suicidal. i tried so many times i lost count, i cut until my arms were beyond recongnition, but i havent in 3 months. i no longer want to cut. the truth is life goes on. a few years ago my best friend killed himself, right in front of me!(the 3rd friend to kill himself that year)i was in a deep depression so deep i couldnt see the surface but some how i managed to pull my act together.i have been abused and raped as a child and even thrown out of my house for months at a time to live on the streets. but now all is well. im taking my medication. talking to my therapist. i have made ammends with my father. and broken all contact with my mother. how did i pull my life together? i asked for help. so please if anyone is about to kill themself please just talk to a therapist, or a parent, or anyone who can help. after all suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem., if you feel unloved you have no idea how wrong you are, if you feel like a failure, you only fail when you quit look into the long term before you make any decisions you may regret. all my love

QTpie87 · 01-22-2005, 12:38 AM

i am so happy for you hun. i feel bad cause thats where i am right now, i know i shouldn't but i just want to be in heaven and i want to go. i really hope this helps someone else though.

K8tie Kool · 01-22-2005, 12:46 AM

dpressedone89, you are really inspirational. Thanks for showing us that things really do get better. I'm not suicidal but I do feel unloved sometimes, and your post is a good reminder to me. QTpie87, I hope you feel better.

Caldus · 01-22-2005, 12:51 AM

You don't know how happy I am to hear this. I was in the same rut when I was in high school and no longer in it! No way suicide! Great feeling isn't it? I really hope people who are in the situation you were in will read this post. Congratulations man I am so happy for you.

sephoraX · 01-22-2005, 03:14 AM

thank you for that post...
i'm in your spot right now--i think. i was in quite a mess for a while and i thought i'd never feel better. i felt worthless and like such a waste. i thought i was a dissappointment to everyone i knew... and then my boyfriend pulled me together ( i don't think he knows he did). everything seemed to turn around right when i needed it to. i realized that i have a loving family and boyfriend and they really will help me through anything. and i am stronger than i think i am.

i made it through and i want to help anyone else i can make it too.

01-22-2005, 12:30 AM	#1
dpressedone89 Offline Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: redwood city california Gender: Male Age: 20 Posts: 1,012	a reason to live/my success story hi, as most of you know i used to be suicidal. i tried so many times i lost count, i cut until my arms were beyond recongnition, but i havent in 3 months. i no longer want to cut. the truth is life goes on. a few years ago my best friend killed himself, right in front of me!(the 3rd friend to kill himself that year)i was in a deep depression so deep i couldnt see the surface but some how i managed to pull my act together.i have been abused and raped as a child and even thrown out of my house for months at a time to live on the streets. but now all is well. im taking my medication. talking to my therapist. i have made ammends with my father. and broken all contact with my mother. how did i pull my life together? i asked for help. so please if anyone is about to kill themself please just talk to a therapist, or a parent, or anyone who can help. after all suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem., if you feel unloved you have no idea how wrong you are, if you feel like a failure, you only fail when you quit look into the long term before you make any decisions you may regret. all my love __________________ ~as you read this your life is ending, second after second you are wasting your life.stop living in fear, your time is limited, do something, write a book, paint a picture, start a fight, do something. because this is all coming to an end~

01-22-2005, 12:46 AM	#3
K8tie Kool Offline Gold Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Posts: 1,550	dpressedone89, you are really inspirational. Thanks for showing us that things really do get better. I'm not suicidal but I do feel unloved sometimes, and your post is a good reminder to me. QTpie87, I hope you feel better. __________________ Believe me, you don't want to be inside my head. It's WAY too busy in there.

01-22-2005, 12:51 AM	#4
Caldus Offline Silver Member Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Forever a Non-Windows User =D Gender: Male Age: 24 Posts: 2,796	You don't know how happy I am to hear this. I was in the same rut when I was in high school and no longer in it! No way suicide! Great feeling isn't it? I really hope people who are in the situation you were in will read this post. Congratulations man I am so happy for you. __________________ "Do you want to fix the problem or soundbyte it?" -- Ross Perot during 1992 presidential debate.

01-22-2005, 12:38 AM	#2
QTpie87 Offline Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Utah Gender: Female Posts: 1,072	i am so happy for you hun. i feel bad cause thats where i am right now, i know i shouldn't but i just want to be in heaven and i want to go. i really hope this helps someone else though.

01-22-2005, 03:14 AM	#5
sephoraX Offline Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Age: 23 Posts: 74	thank you for that post... i'm in your spot right now--i think. i was in quite a mess for a while and i thought i'd never feel better. i felt worthless and like such a waste. i thought i was a dissappointment to everyone i knew... and then my boyfriend pulled me together ( i don't think he knows he did). everything seemed to turn around right when i needed it to. i realized that i have a loving family and boyfriend and they really will help me through anything. and i am stronger than i think i am. i made it through and i want to help anyone else i can make it too.