Im about to crawl out of my skin!

SugarSweetness407 · 01-15-2005, 09:43 PM

I am so anxious right now, and i don't know what to do. Part of me wants to call my ex so bad right to because eariler i was feeling sad, wondering what he was doing, where he was, and all of that...so i read the list of all the horrible things he has ever done to me...it helped then it made me sooo angry, that i just want to call him and freak out on him. Which i know won't help anything.

The thing that is bothering me is, that one thing i wrote on the list was how one night he asked me for money so he could go get a lap dance from a stripper, and wanted me to come and and watch. That's what is making me so angry, now i dont know if there is more to it, or what but i knew i needed to come on here first before i attempted to call him. I just can't someone could be that insensitive to ask their girlfriend at the time for some money to go get a freakin lap dance. We we're supposed to be having a wonderful night that night and he completely ruined it with that stupid comment, then blames me for wanting to do it, saying that i no longer want to do anything sexual with him anymore, so he has to go pay a stripper to do it. Just reading that brought back so many emotions that i just want to scream...which i probably should it might actually make me feel better...lol.

It took me 2 hours to calm the jerk down, and tell him that i wasnt going to give him the money, and when i first told him i wasn't going to give him any money he was driving my car at the time and he started driving around the parking lot like a lunatic, while there were people around, and he was yelling and screaming at me, to the point where i was actually considering giving him the money so he would calm down and not kill us or someone else. We were in Cananda at the time and i had no clue how to get back, so even if he did go in by himself and i stayed in the car i wouldn't of had the first clue on how to get home. I just can't believe how reading that made me so angry, but it also did some good, its making me realize now and im finally taking the blind fold off my eyes to see that hes crazy (thats putting it nicely) and that if he had the nerve to ask me for money to have some stipper give him a lap dance, and go into a bar where he knows he couldn't be...he doesn't respect me or himself....

Sorry everyone...just needed to vent before i called and did/said something stupid!...Thanks

**annie24** · 01-15-2005, 09:49 PM

I'm glad you came here! That's right - don't call! I'm glad you didn't. What a total jerk! Asks you for money for a lap dance - jeez... Be glad this one is out of your life. Don't be calling him. Remember, you're better than that! You've moved on with your life, don't let the creep think you want to go back to that kind of treatment.

If you have the urge to get some things off your chest, just PM me.

01-15-2005, 09:43 PM	#1
SugarSweetness407 Offline Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Age: 25 Posts: 102	Im about to crawl out of my skin! I am so anxious right now, and i don't know what to do. Part of me wants to call my ex so bad right to because eariler i was feeling sad, wondering what he was doing, where he was, and all of that...so i read the list of all the horrible things he has ever done to me...it helped then it made me sooo angry, that i just want to call him and freak out on him. Which i know won't help anything. The thing that is bothering me is, that one thing i wrote on the list was how one night he asked me for money so he could go get a lap dance from a stripper, and wanted me to come and and watch. That's what is making me so angry, now i dont know if there is more to it, or what but i knew i needed to come on here first before i attempted to call him. I just can't someone could be that insensitive to ask their girlfriend at the time for some money to go get a freakin lap dance. We we're supposed to be having a wonderful night that night and he completely ruined it with that stupid comment, then blames me for wanting to do it, saying that i no longer want to do anything sexual with him anymore, so he has to go pay a stripper to do it. Just reading that brought back so many emotions that i just want to scream...which i probably should it might actually make me feel better...lol. It took me 2 hours to calm the jerk down, and tell him that i wasnt going to give him the money, and when i first told him i wasn't going to give him any money he was driving my car at the time and he started driving around the parking lot like a lunatic, while there were people around, and he was yelling and screaming at me, to the point where i was actually considering giving him the money so he would calm down and not kill us or someone else. We were in Cananda at the time and i had no clue how to get back, so even if he did go in by himself and i stayed in the car i wouldn't of had the first clue on how to get home. I just can't believe how reading that made me so angry, but it also did some good, its making me realize now and im finally taking the blind fold off my eyes to see that hes crazy (thats putting it nicely) and that if he had the nerve to ask me for money to have some stipper give him a lap dance, and go into a bar where he knows he couldn't be...he doesn't respect me or himself.... Sorry everyone...just needed to vent before i called and did/said something stupid!...Thanks __________________ Pretending Feelings Aren't There....Doesn't Make Them Go Away....

01-15-2005, 09:49 PM	#2
annie24 Offline Super Moderator Join Date: Oct 2004 Age: 29 Posts: 26,814	I'm glad you came here! That's right - don't call! I'm glad you didn't. What a total jerk! Asks you for money for a lap dance - jeez... Be glad this one is out of your life. Don't be calling him. Remember, you're better than that! You've moved on with your life, don't let the creep think you want to go back to that kind of treatment. If you have the urge to get some things off your chest, just PM me.