Healing? I hope so!

OneBrightStar · 11-03-2009, 11:49 PM

It's been almost three weeks since the break-up for me. I was NC for 8 days right after the breakup, and since then I've been in very LC with my ex. We were supposed to meet up tomorrow to talk about "Where the Wild Things Are", but he called me (not texted or e-mailed, but called) to let me know he's swamped with homework and can't make it. Honestly, I was a bit relieved. And it was almost as if his phone call was a step forward for me in truly healing.

I don't know what happened today ... I feel like I just let go of the things I cannot control. I can't control him coming back, I can't control the time it takes to heal. I just need to let it be and, as my mom has been saying, take it one day at a time.

My emotions have been going crazy .. I'm okay one day and having a breakdown the next. It happens every other day, I swear! But it feels good to cry like that; it's really helping me get out my thoughts.

I'm going to start seeing a therapist tomorrow. Work has been stressful for me lately (recently got promoted and thus have more responsibilities, which have been piling up and sressing me out majorly) and I've come to realize that I have bad anxiety issues.

I do still think he will come back, but I'm trying to not hold onto that hope. It's time for ME and only ME.

OneBrightStar · 11-03-2009, 11:54 PM

Also, the urge to text/call him has died down ... I thought it would never go away!

Nappyloxs · 11-03-2009, 11:58 PM

Congrats. It just takes time and you will eventually have more good days than bad.

Just focus on you and your new position and when he comes back, you may not even want him back.

Leighton · 11-04-2009, 12:03 AM

You should be proud of yourself. I can't wait to heal..

OneBrightStar · 11-04-2009, 12:15 AM

Thanks nappyloxs!

Leighton, it's taken a lot of tears, breakdowns, and reflection to get where I am right now. This is all subject to change at any moment!

11-03-2009, 11:49 PM	#1
OneBrightStar Offline Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Southern California Gender: Female Age: 24 Posts: 102	Healing? I hope so! It's been almost three weeks since the break-up for me. I was NC for 8 days right after the breakup, and since then I've been in very LC with my ex. We were supposed to meet up tomorrow to talk about "Where the Wild Things Are", but he called me (not texted or e-mailed, but called) to let me know he's swamped with homework and can't make it. Honestly, I was a bit relieved. And it was almost as if his phone call was a step forward for me in truly healing. I don't know what happened today ... I feel like I just let go of the things I cannot control. I can't control him coming back, I can't control the time it takes to heal. I just need to let it be and, as my mom has been saying, take it one day at a time. My emotions have been going crazy .. I'm okay one day and having a breakdown the next. It happens every other day, I swear! But it feels good to cry like that; it's really helping me get out my thoughts. I'm going to start seeing a therapist tomorrow. Work has been stressful for me lately (recently got promoted and thus have more responsibilities, which have been piling up and sressing me out majorly) and I've come to realize that I have bad anxiety issues. I do still think he will come back, but I'm trying to not hold onto that hope. It's time for ME and only ME.

11-03-2009, 11:54 PM	#2
OneBrightStar Offline Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Southern California Gender: Female Age: 24 Posts: 102	Also, the urge to text/call him has died down ... I thought it would never go away!

11-03-2009, 11:58 PM	#3
Nappyloxs Online Bronze Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 281	Congrats. It just takes time and you will eventually have more good days than bad. Just focus on you and your new position and when he comes back, you may not even want him back.

11-04-2009, 12:03 AM	#4
Leighton Offline Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Ontario, Canada Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 87	You should be proud of yourself. I can't wait to heal..

11-04-2009, 12:15 AM	#5
OneBrightStar Offline Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Southern California Gender: Female Age: 24 Posts: 102	Thanks nappyloxs! Leighton, it's taken a lot of tears, breakdowns, and reflection to get where I am right now. This is all subject to change at any moment!