I finally deicided to start NC today. Well I wanted to since a long time ago but didn't. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I started my own thread and was going to post there daily about my journey to recovery but I decided to do it here instead with everyone else. I'm feeling very depressed and sad. This week has been awful and everyday I feel like crying because I see him everyday and with other girls. I see him happy and I don't think it's fair that he gets to be happy while I'm still stuck. Today I promise I will try to not talk to him ever again and will ignore him no matter what. So today is Day 1.