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I finally deicided to start NC today. Well I wanted to since a long time ago but didn't. I've been feeling pretty down lately. I started my own thread and was going to post there daily about my journey to recovery but I decided to do it here instead with everyone else. I'm feeling very depressed and sad. This week has been awful and everyday I feel like crying because I see him everyday and with other girls. I see him happy and I don't think it's fair that he gets to be happy while I'm still stuck. Today I promise I will try to not talk to him ever again and will ignore him no matter what. So today is Day 1.

So I really want to go NC but how do I do this when I see him all the time in school and he sits next to me and I talk to him. It's been four months since we've broken up but we still talk and even did something on Tuesday with him. I feel horrible about it and used. How do I act with him at school? Is it too late to him realize what he lost in me if I go NC now?