I hate that I still love you after everything you have put me through.....you promised me that you would come back to me after you got everything in order in your life....that you wouldn't go more than a week without contacting me and now it is going on three weeks that I have heard nothing from you. I believed in you and everything you told me and I completely trusted you....I gave you all of me and what did it get me...nothing, got me here without you and no way to contact you or even know where you are....I think about you every day and wonder if you have even one thought about me at all...... You promised that you would never disappear from my life and now I am here without you not knowing how to even find you.....that is what hurts the most....no goodbye, no I dont ever want to see or hear from you, no I am going to go on with my life without you....just the fake promise of "I will never leave you that way, you should know better than that, that you will always hear from me one way or the other"......all freaking lies......but here I am still completely and totally in love with you and watching my phone hoping that one day you will call....I have got to be the biggest idiot on the planet......