Hanyou

Day 5 Redux... ...was able to get through the weekend which seemed like forever; but was able to overcome thinking of her going to Vegas w/o me...I usually hate the weekends since I can't hang out with our mutual friends anymore w/o seeing or thinking of her...but got through the loneliness...actually started thinking of dating other girls and that there is someone else out there. Still not ready to date in case it might be a rebound thing and can't do that to some innocent girl...there is this one that's interested in me but I don't want to give her the wrong impression until I know myself...The next couple of weekends will be good/easy now since I have plans that don't involve her or our mutual friends...

Damn it! I was doing so good w/ NC for 13 days until today...finally deleted her phone # last night and didn't feel a thing; but today finally went on FB after a few days and found out she's going to Vegas with some of my friends when the whole idea to go was both mine and another friend...feel like I'm losing everyone that I've been close to over the past couple of years... DAY 1 (all over again)...