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Dear xxx, I may be drunk right now, and I know that I just broke up with you today, but I really am sorry. I am so sorry because I know that you are hurting just as much if not more than me. I feel so bad about what happened between us, and if there was anything I could do to change it, I would. I know for a fact that you are so much better to me than you were last fall. But we just aren't right for each other. Our conversations are very dull and I find myself wanting to spend more time with my friends than with you. There will always be a part of me that will want you back, but I feel like that part is beginning to dwindle significantly. I don't what's it going to like to see you with another guy in the Spring. I don't know if I can handle it. Here's what I do know: I know that if one day down the road, if I see you when we have our own lives, I will smile at you because I'll remember how much I learned from you. I'll always remember you, for the rest of my life. You really do mean a lot to me. And if we are meant to be together, then we will surely be together in the future. I'll always care about you, I'll be seeing you.

Name, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I had to leave but studying abroad was something that I had always planned on doing. Leaving you was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and while being here definitely has its perks, I still miss you and think about you nearly every second of every day. You're the only girl I've ever been in love with. My friends, even your best friend, believe that I am too good for you but that never made me love you any less. All it did was make realize how much I love you because normally I am influenced by my friends but in this case it had no effect on me whatsoever. I'm sorry that you can't express how you're really feeling right now to me. I hate that every time we talk on Facebook you can't tell me that you miss me. Instead you tell me that you miss your other friend, who is a huge loser that no one likes. I miss waking up to you so much that it kills me every time I roll over and you're not there. I'm sorry that you refused to try long distance, but I know that it probably would not have worked. I really hope that you will consider getting back together with me in the fall. I know that our relationship wasn't perfect, but it made us happy nonetheless. I envision spending my last year of college with you at my side, not sleeping around anymore. You have no idea how bad it's been this past month. I keep thinking about what it will be like when I see you again. I don't know if I'll be able to hold in my nervousness, or if it will feel natural, as if I never left. I have tried to stop dwelling on it, and remember that I will still be the person I was when I return, the one you fell for. I love you to death and I miss you every day.