I am having an affair with a married man. It has been 5 months since we started sleeping together (we have been friends for about a year), and I have fallen in love with him and I want to win him over.
First of all let me start off by saying that I know that what I am doing is wrong and so does he. It has made both of us sick and emotional and everything else... but we continue to see each other. We have called it off a few times, but everytime we see each other we end up in each others arms. I blame it on uncontrollable lust.
My delema.... his wife knows that she may be losing him to me. So she wants to change for him and work things out so that she doesn't lose him.
Back to the beginning. He was living in a sexless marriage. Married 20 years, no sex in about 2 years. No closesness, no touching, no kissing - you know all that good stuff. I come along and we are both totally hot for each other - we have the best sex ever....... His wife finds out about us and fights with him for days, tells him she is going to change and doesn't want him to leave her. He breaks up with me. And what do you know they have sex for the first time in ages. Wow! I should be a marriage councilor. I can't believe our affair may have brought them closer. How bad do you think I feel since I was really counting on that divorce.
Anyways we talk, he tells me he feels as if he has cheated on me, what kind of craziness is this... Well four days later, we are back in bed together. Great sex, incredible sex. He can't resist me. And I want nothing more to win him over. It has been a month since then. He is total confused, he wants to do the right thing... (you know stay married to the one he committed himself to for better or for worse) but he ends up at my house almost every weekend. We are crazy for each other, when he is with me... But then he goes home and trys to work things out with his wife. It's all bullsh*t. He's lying to her. He's lying to me. He doesn't even know if he is coming or going.
I don't want to lose him. I want to win him over. And I may very well be an idiot for trying to do so. But love makes us stupid, doesn't it. So how the hell am I suppose to win him over with out letting him have his cake and eat it too?
Oh ya, you may want to hear the kicker. She owns half a million in property - they live on, and he's broke with out her. What I got going for me - well I am very attractive, 15 years younger than her and she is not so pretty ( I am being kind ). (and thank god they have no children)
Oh there is more... there is more... but this kind of the quick version summary.
So to all you non judgemental infidels - How do I win him over?
NakedButterfly