My two best friends are dating each other. We have all known each other for about 3 or 4 years.
I developed a huge crush on her about a year ago and a few months ago i fell deeply in love with her. We were a little drunk one night and we kissed, it was so good. And I told her how I felt, and she told me she liked me too and knew she wasn't supposed to, and actually had a crush on me before she even dated her boyfriend.
We slept together last week, we just couldn't resist each other. We both felt real bad and sorry afterwards and we talked about it on MSN teh next day. We've spent a lot of time together trying to sort it out between ourselves and deal with our feelings.
She really loves him and I didn't want anything to come between them because he's like my best friend and he is really good to her.
Last night we almost did it again, but we stopped ourselves knowing how much hurt it would cause.
But it was too late, he already found the logs on MSN (which she thought she deleted) and even thought we never said anything directly he kind of figured it out. He asked her today and she couldn't lie to him.
So she's moved back home and they're on a break, and well I think all our relationships with each other are pretty screwed up now. I haven't spoken to him yet, and she says I probably shouldn't cos he's really mad.
I didn't want it to turn out like this.
I really love her and I really respect him, and it just happened, and now I don't know what to do.
The worst thing is that she is like the girl of my dreams, I am head over heels for her. if a day goes by and I don't see her I am devastated. She says I'll get over it, but I don't think I will ever stop loving her. She's just too great.
But I hate what i've done to him, and her happiness with him.