coyote1980

on my bday, no msgs. no calls. no texts from u. i guess it's really over, isn't it? u couldn't come up with any excuses. i trusted you all this time for 2years. i understand now why u were being so controlling and jealous. u were the one whod been doing things behind my back. why would anyone like that trust other people right? i know why u weren't supportive of my illness. u weren't that into me. u lied to me about ur feelings. u blamed everything on me while i did everything right. u were the one who screwed everything up. i was right all this time. thank you for making me think i was selfish, immature, insecure, liar, controlling, jealous, weak, have low self-esteem, no dream, no will to do anything, short tempered, messy, stubborn, not affectionate and all the other things u said. for 2 years, i thought i was all those things u said, and i believed it. i was none of those. i was trying my hardest to be some perfect angel u were dreaming of that wouldn't exist in this world. no one is perfect, u weren't even close to being a normal human being, yet u expected me more than anyone can expect from anyone in this whole damn world. u were demanding, selfish, needy, liar, insecure, liar, jealous, immature, liar, controlling, stubborn, short tempered, liar, messy, no emotion, oh and did i mention liar? i will get over you someday, but you will live with regrets forever. i learned from my experience, and i will never ever date anyone who will ask impossibles from me. i am me, and no one can change who i am. i am a good person. i know who i am now. thank u for reminding me that im capable of absorbing negatives and turn em into positives.

Please tell me there's a totally good reason why you aren't telling me the truth. I miss you so much, and I still love you so much. it's been a week, and my hope's fading, and El is visiting the office. I know you went to her party. I'm going nuts. I want my stuff back now....so much memories.

"yes. i wish i never met her, i probably have passed up so many great women because of her. i am a great guy and treated her good, it makes me wonder if women dont really want to be treated like that..." I think if the girl is ready for a serious relationship, she doesn't crave bad boys or games. You didn't completely waste your time. I'm sure you learned so much from this

hey that's totally natural! hell, I heard that my ex from like 6-7years ago is getting married this year. It was still shocking for me!