I miss you so much, I feel I love you even when there's no reason, all i can * * * * en think of is YOUUU!! YOU DONT DESERVE IT BUT I DO. YOU DONT LOVE ME ANYMORE! AND IM HERE, ALONE, WITH 2 KIDS! THAT I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF, THAT I HAVE TO PROVIDE, THAT I HAVE TO LOVE, ALL BY MY SELF!! WHAT ABOUT OUR DREAMS AS FAMILY TOGETHER?? WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO ALL THE LOVE?? WHY YOU DONT WANT TO STICK TO US, WHY YOU DONT WANT TO FIGHT?? WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?? I MISS YOU!! I WISHI I DIDNT BUT I DOOO, IFEEL IM DIYING HERE, I WISH WE COULD BE A HAPPY FAMILY TOGETHER!! WHY IS THAT SO HARD?? WHY DO YOU TREAT ME LIKE * * * * ? WHY YOU DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME?!!! ALL I HAVE DONE FOR YOU IS LOVE YOU AND HELP YOU IN EVERY WAY I COULD, ALL I EDVER DID WAS LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU. THAT WAS ALL I DID AND THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU NEVER!! YOU WERE ALWAYS ROBOTIC AND COLD, YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD ME OR RESPECTED ME, YOU NEVER EVER DID, YOU WERE SELFHISH AND SELFCENTERED AND YOU WANTED ME TO BE YOUR SUPPORT AND ACT LIKE IM OK, BUT YOU COULDN BE MY SUPPORT, YOU ARE A FAKE, YOU DONT SHOW YOUR FEELINGS YOUR FEARS, YOUR WORRIES, YOUR HAPPINESS, NOTHING!!! ALL YOU DO IS BOTTLE UP, UNTIL YOU WITHDRAW LIKE * * * * ING ROBOT, SENSELESS, DEAD, I HATE THAT ABOUT YOU, WHY CANT YOU BE NORMAL!! WHY CANT YOU FEEL? SUFFER? LOVE? BE HAPPY!! STOP OVER WARRING YOURSELF?? WHAT CANT YOU ENJOY LIFE AS IT IS!! WHY YOU HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL EVERYTHING IS PERFECT TO START LIVING!! TO ENJOY THE GOODNESS OF LIFE, TO HAVE FUN!!! NOT EVEN WITH YOUR OWN KIDS!!! WHAT ARE YOU MADE OF???? YOU NEVER LET ME LOVE YOU AS I WANTED, AS I COULD, YOU SHOT ME DOWN, YOU MADE ME GO AWAY AND HATE YOU.... I COULDNT APROACH YOU, I COULDNT REACH YOU, YOU WERE A ROBOT!! AND NOW THAT YOU ARE ALONE YOU ACT SO HAPPY AND LITE AND CARELESS, LIKE IF WE WERE A BURDEN TO YOU!!! A BIG MISTAKE IN YOUR LIFE, AN ERROR.... HOW SAD!!! THAT MAKES ME MAD AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME!!!