amber81

I'm exhausted of thinking of you, I erased you from fbook, I feel better, I want minimum contact with you!! I know you are busy but It hurts me that you didn't find the time to ask about your kids, it's been 2 days...!! and today you don't go to school?? so what the * * * * are you doing?? I bet you're hanging out with your friends and having the time of your life!! single and without any responsibility and with my kids link card to feed you!!!! while you dont send a penny, i have to provide to this kids, find a job and take care of them!!! and get you out of my !@#!@$ mind!!! It's very exhausting to be thinking of you, I been dreaming of you every single night!! I AM TIRED!! I WANT YOU ARE OF MY HEAD, OF MY HEART OF MY MINDDDDDD!!!! I CANT GET YOU OUT OF MY LIFE BECAUSE OF THIS BABIES, but who knows, you might forget about them soon, and as much as that would hurt me, or hurt them, i I kind of would like that for a while!!!!! I don't want to have new from you, and I sincerely hope you have a screwed up life!! before I used to wish the best for you for my kids, but right now I dont give a * * * * !! because you don't do anything for them anyway!!! so what's the point??? well I want you to suffer like I am, at least for a while, then you can be fine!! I'm not a mean person and I don't desire bad to people normaly!! but right now the rage, the pain is consuming me!!!! I'm tired of you!! of this disfuncional relationship!! I have the feeling that I want to be with you, but really when I remember how you were, how you treat me, how you act!! I dnot want that anymore, I dont know if you are gonna change!! but you are not a nice person to be with!!! you are a good person, but you and I are not compatible at all!! you don't know how to balance your life, you don't know how to treat a wife or a family!!! you are selfcentered, all you think is how to solve your dam problems!!! and yes! everyone has problems but them are not the center of life!! there's stll joy!! there's llife!! there are good times!!! but you couldnt do it!! you only can be happy when everything is perfect!! when you are rich!! well good luck with that!!!! nobody can live a life like that! not even you!! that's why you are full of pains and what knows what diseases you mmight have!!! because not even you can stand your own life!!!!

I miss him a lot, and at the same time I feel pain. I don't want to know anything about him, but at the same time i wonder, I have anxiety attacks wondering if he's with someone else... I check his facebook page because im curios, but at the same time i would like to errase him from my friends and never see him again, it's too painfull!!

Oh my god, we all sound so pathetic that it's funny!! Please dont be offended, i know we need to do this, but still is kind of funny if you read .... Ha hahaha

I miss you so much, I feel I love you even when there's no reason, all i can * * * * en think of is YOUUU!! YOU DONT DESERVE IT BUT I DO. YOU DONT LOVE ME ANYMORE! AND IM HERE, ALONE, WITH 2 KIDS! THAT I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF, THAT I HAVE TO PROVIDE, THAT I HAVE TO LOVE, ALL BY MY SELF!! WHAT ABOUT OUR DREAMS AS FAMILY TOGETHER?? WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO ALL THE LOVE?? WHY YOU DONT WANT TO STICK TO US, WHY YOU DONT WANT TO FIGHT?? WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?? I MISS YOU!! I WISHI I DIDNT BUT I DOOO, IFEEL IM DIYING HERE, I WISH WE COULD BE A HAPPY FAMILY TOGETHER!! WHY IS THAT SO HARD?? WHY DO YOU TREAT ME LIKE * * * * ? WHY YOU DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME?!!! ALL I HAVE DONE FOR YOU IS LOVE YOU AND HELP YOU IN EVERY WAY I COULD, ALL I EDVER DID WAS LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU. THAT WAS ALL I DID AND THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU NEVER!! YOU WERE ALWAYS ROBOTIC AND COLD, YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD ME OR RESPECTED ME, YOU NEVER EVER DID, YOU WERE SELFHISH AND SELFCENTERED AND YOU WANTED ME TO BE YOUR SUPPORT AND ACT LIKE IM OK, BUT YOU COULDN BE MY SUPPORT, YOU ARE A FAKE, YOU DONT SHOW YOUR FEELINGS YOUR FEARS, YOUR WORRIES, YOUR HAPPINESS, NOTHING!!! ALL YOU DO IS BOTTLE UP, UNTIL YOU WITHDRAW LIKE * * * * ING ROBOT, SENSELESS, DEAD, I HATE THAT ABOUT YOU, WHY CANT YOU BE NORMAL!! WHY CANT YOU FEEL? SUFFER? LOVE? BE HAPPY!! STOP OVER WARRING YOURSELF?? WHAT CANT YOU ENJOY LIFE AS IT IS!! WHY YOU HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL EVERYTHING IS PERFECT TO START LIVING!! TO ENJOY THE GOODNESS OF LIFE, TO HAVE FUN!!! NOT EVEN WITH YOUR OWN KIDS!!! WHAT ARE YOU MADE OF???? YOU NEVER LET ME LOVE YOU AS I WANTED, AS I COULD, YOU SHOT ME DOWN, YOU MADE ME GO AWAY AND HATE YOU.... I COULDNT APROACH YOU, I COULDNT REACH YOU, YOU WERE A ROBOT!! AND NOW THAT YOU ARE ALONE YOU ACT SO HAPPY AND LITE AND CARELESS, LIKE IF WE WERE A BURDEN TO YOU!!! A BIG MISTAKE IN YOUR LIFE, AN ERROR.... HOW SAD!!! THAT MAKES ME MAD AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME!!!