PrincessLuXLu

I disagree with that saying because I used to cheat when I was younger when i were with my exes. I have been with my current boyfriend for almost 3 years now and I have never cheated because I love him and will never hurt him.

I am turning 19 on sept. 29 and not sure if i want to live to see my birthday. There is too much pain in my life and i don't care to feel anymore. All i feel is agony and pain. My heart is already shredded into little pieces and there is no cure. My mom is emotionally unstable because my dad is still cheating on her. She constantly yells at me and my brother. My dad is just a psycho that don't bring much money home because he is taking care of his other family. My mom doesn't want to divorce him. After i moved because of my mom not working because of my dad, i have left my old neighborhood and my friends. My best friend had to move away to florida because she has a baby. i have been with the same guy for almost 3 years, the only thing that keeps me alive so far. We haven't been in a very good relationship for a year and a half and argue constantly. We also had done things that hurt each other (not intentionally). My boyfriend already has his life set. I feel like a burden because i feel i am slowing him down and i know sooner or later he is going to leave me again. I love this guy to death though. i feel as though i have nobody and is being punished for something. basically, i have no friends, no family, no soul mate, and no future (didn't finish highschool). I am also dillusional and i keep thinking that i am not in my own body and keep thinking that i had a body switch or something. Please don't laugh, this is some serious stuff. I feel as though i am going insane. i am always nervous, anxious, fearful, and depressed. i hate myself, i hate my family, and i hate everybody almost. most of all i hate my mind and my so called useless piece of nothing life. i seriously am considering about suicide. i have throughout the summer, and my mental image of everything is basically psychotic. i want to jump off the roof and land on a car to show everyone the pain i feel. i don't even know who i am anymore anyway. i know i belong in a mental institute and actually don't mind going. but with what money? if god can only take my soul from my body and let me die a peaceful death.

did i actually make you think that or are you just kidding? sorry about that.

thinking about stuff like that is not normal right?

Hi, my name is Lucy and i have posted before. What i am going to tell you is about to make you think that i am crazy. i keep having these thoughts that i am not me. i keep thinking that i am in someone elses body. isn't that scary? i keep reading things about brain transplants and stuff, and i actually believe that i am in someone else's body even though i know i grew up with only memories of being me. i seriously think that i might be nuts. i am afraid of telling people about this because people might think i am crazy. well, i honestly think i am nuts. i cry all the time, it's like i am loosing myself. i usually don't think about stuff like that, but i've always had ocd since i was like 14(not diagnosed), like washing my hands alot, and doing things more than twice. my brain is playing tricks on me. i think maybe it also has to do with what happened throughout my life. please dont laugh at this.

Hi, I would like to know how to shorten my menstrual periods because they last 7-8 days. Any tips? Thanks a whole bunch.

Hi, I am an 18 year old girl who is masterbating at least once per day, and mostly 2-3-4 times per day. I think I might be suffering from depression and that's why I do it. I do it especially when I am sad, depressed, or angry. I even do it when I cry and sometimes I am not even in the mood. I have been masterbating since I was 14 years old and have masterbated alot then, but not compared to this past year. I even replaced the simple enjoyments of the outside life with excessive masterbation. What should I do?

My problem is not mainly that, it's the weird thoughts I have and believing them that scares me. I am having crazy thoughts that I am not me. It just started recently. I am scaring myself because I think I might be going crazy.

Hi, my name is Lucy and I am having extreme psychological issues after I found out my boyfriend looked at porn. I seem to not be thinking straight and seem to have an identity problem. I think i might be going crazy. Everything I feel is depression, sadness, and confusion. By identity problems meaning I think insane thoughts of being not me, but truly somebody unnattractive. Am I going crazy?

I am too depressed. I cry every minute of the day. Not once do I not cry. Everytime i go get help, something negative always happen.

Hi, my name is Lucy and i have posted here before. Well.....the problem is that I want to commit suicide more then ever now and I am only 18 yrs old. I can't focus, everything in life is so blurry, I haven't accomplished anything, I don't really have many friends, and i can't trust anyone anymore. I don't feel much of anything except for extreme sadness and depression. I really, really want to die. I have prayed several times to God to end my life during my sleep, but my prayer isn't being answered. I don't want to do it myself because I will go to hell if I do even though I have not been a religious person in a while. I also am extremely unhappy at home and want to get out of here. I have tried given life a chance a couple of years ago, but right now I wish i didn't. This awful pain is killing me slowly day by day. What should i do? I am at the brink of doing something.

thank you. i will try and succeed, but i guess i have to love and help myself.

i have the same problem. there is no such thing as too much porn and to little porn. there should be no such thing as it unless you guys want new positions. if he truly loves you, and is satisfied with you, he shouldn't need it. ask him he if he is willing to stop if you guys made a video together or take pictures of yourself. because i made a video with my boyfriend and he uses porn instead of that, and he claims we have amazing sex and we have it almost all the time. guys always lie just to get the sex and meanwhile they can fantasize about other woman also. especially when a guy lies, says it's wrong and he does it behind your back, and make himself seem perfect for you. that's what mine did, and now i have a self esteem of nothing. love doesn't have to be like this, but us woman have to deal with it day to day.

i am so depressed with my life. everyday is a hole in my heart, always wanting to cry. feeling unloved and lonely. i am devastated with my life. i somewhat want to get help, but i am too depressed for even that. i dont feel good about myself. i am told i am beautiful and smart. but i haven't accomplished anything. i didn't finish high school and i am doing nothing but staying at home all day. i dont have any close friends. my tears are slowly rolling down my eyes and i need someone to talk to. i am scared to hurt myself because i don't want to. but my mind constanltly thinking about suicidal thoughts.

I am 18 years old, and my boyfriend is 21. Maybe it was because of my relationships in the past. I used to date almost all guys that were like that. I didn't mind. But how is he going to try and make me the best in that department if i'm not. It's like having a relationship with 2 people. The person he was before made me believe who he was. I am really attracted to innocence, but with all the lies especially, it just didn't make any sense. I wouldn't even mind if he hung a picture of a woman on the wall naked, if he thinks it looks nice, fine. But he looks at another woman when he gets home, and sneaks and masterbates with it while i am sleeping in my bed waiting to see him the next day on the same day i gave him sex. He was also unsure about seeing me the next day.