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  1. rjm0827
    Well today was day 30?, a month regardless. She has texted me 4 times within the past few days, I never responded. Today I went out with some buddies and we drank and what not, and well.... I called her..... she didn't answer. Within a few minutes I received a text message "Do you need something?". I responded 10 minutes later, "Just wanted to clear up some stuff. Call me later if u want to talk. If not, maybe another day." All her texts were angry toned and she was pissed at me for whatever reasons. Literally 1 minute later she called. We talked for like 15 minutes. I played my hard attitude and acted like nothing bothered me. She broke down a few times. Nothing bad, just the norm since we went from 5.5 years dating to me ignoring her for a month solid. It was ok~ I supose. I ended the conversation prematurely and told her I would talk to her eventually. I texted her back 30 minutes later. "Look, I want to be friends. We need to just meet up one day this week and have lunch and end on a good note. Not over the phone." Besides feeling the way I do, I showed no weakness, I don't want her thinking she has me on the ropes. I wish I never ever called her tonight b/c yesterday she was the last thing on my mind now she's the only thing on my mind!!! Maybe when all the alchohol wears off I will feel better?... I just miss her now, and I already broke down by sending her a text, even though it wasn't nothing sappy. GOD THIS SUCKS.
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    1 hour into day 30! It's been a month and she's texted twice but I haven't contacted her or responded at all. I'm positive it's bothering her, and she deserves it haha! Funny how the tides have turned...
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    Day 25. She texted me yesterday, Friday. I didn't respond and have no clue what to do. Please check out my new topic for details.
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    Starting day 23. Feeling the same as I have for the past week. Over it and looking forward to meeting someone new, actually really excited b/c I know it will happen sooner or later. At the same time I still feel the need to call her. Not sure what I would say or why I even want to call.
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    day 21, 3 weeks finally. just 1 more week till it's been a month.
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    Day 20 I dont think about her or the situation that much anymore. I do miss her though and want to contact her. I honestly dont think I want her back but then again i'm not too sure anymore. I will contact her eventually but i'm trying to make it a month with complete NC first though. I dont get down and lonely but some days, like today, I wonder what would happen if I called just to see how things are going.... I've been going out a lot but when I talk to other girls I just find myself thinking about her sometimes, not all the time. Wish I could just meet someone else and move on.
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    day 16 odd, havent had a bad day yet..... i've thought about calling her maybe twice but quickly realized it would be dumb. before i decided to go nc and thought lc was the right thing i was so unstable and freaking out thinking about it. now that i'm doing strict nc, it seems too easy. just seems strange to me how stuff changes so.
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    Well in 2 hours it'll be day 10. I actually kind of had a small urge to call her today. Not sure why... I don't want her back. I do miss her but I enjoy the idea of meeting someone new. Just odd I had this urge....
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    we broke up mid-Dec so it's been over a month, the whole confrontation thing wasn't but a week or so ago though. i agree, nothing wrong with waiting, i just know it hurt her. i want to call more so to make her feel better and just clear things up.
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    Day 8. I don't really miss her and just yesterday I posted saying I wouldn't post here anymore blah blah blah, but I feel like calling her. Only b/c we ended on a not so good note. I told her about me and some other girls I had been with since we had broke up which really shocked her. I just kind of want to clear some stuff up and let her know I'm not mad at her and hope she feels the same. Just end on a good note. I don't want her back, that's not at all why I want to call. What do you guys think? Call or just say screw it? I'm fairly confident that by contacting her it's not going to bring back feeling or set me back.
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    Day 7. Last Tuesday I found out she had been lieing to me and that she had been with another guy a few times. I also admitted to her that I had been with some people. I told her when I left her room that night that I was done with her. She made comments that she didn't like him and in the long run she knew I would move on and she wouldn't. Told her that was her problem and left. I honestly have no desire to talk to her anymore. Not b/c she was with someone, but because this is one of the very few lies she ever told me in our 5.5 year relationship. Funny how I thought I would never ever move on and now I feel so happy for this to have happened. Not sure I'll be posting her much now. It's not really a "NC challenge" anymore. Thanks for the support guys!
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    Going on Day 4, been really really easy for some reason. The other times were hard. I'm guessing i'll have a hard day soon though. Trying to do 2~ weeks before talking with her.
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    Day 1 Well it's 11:40pm but i'm sure i'll make it haha. I will have to talk to her later this week though, she's taking the(our?) puppy home with her this weekend. This is more of a give her a little space. We are on good terms. Just don't want to screw it up, the more space I give the better.
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    Been hanging out and talking to my ex every few days lately. We are both getting along really well. Today especially. I really hoped we could do something tonight but she is hanging out with one of friends instead. Booo lol. Anyways, we are on great terms at the moment but I think I am going to go NC for a week or so. I know she enjoys being with me and knowing I'm there for her, but I think she needs a reminder what it's like not to have me at all. I think it will help her decide what it is she wants. Not sure if I should tell her that I want to break contact for a while or just disappear. I don't want her to think something bad by me disappearing, but at the same time if she told me she was doing something like this it wouldn't bother me b/c I know we would just talk again in a week. Advice? Soo Monday will be day 1. Going to need some support to get through this lol. (And I know a week isn't long but gotta start somewhere.)
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    Day 0 I went for 6 days? I think that's right. Then we talked and it's all friendly again.... We hang out, she calls, I call, we kiss, but it still just seems too friendly. That's not what I want. Sooo I know I have to talk to her tomorrow and chances are tomorrow night. Starting Sunday I'm going to try and start NC again. I want to go atleast 2 weeks. Not sure if it's possible though.
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