crosstownTraffic

Agree with last poster and this must be tough on both of you two, I might add. You cannot even get yourself off cuz of the hig-risk pregnancy and you are not allowed to get him off either. A very catch-22 situation. I think he yelled cuz you just caught him unawares.. it was just awkward.. I would prefer my SO didnt' look at porn either, but if he couldn't have me, then it's not that unnatural he's using it as a release since the two of you cannot have sex.. How long have it's been, since it was safe for you both to have sex together. I can imagine you are both going crazy... arrange to have a nice long weekend somewhere after baby is born and you're ready to have sex again... Make it something for you and him to look forward to....

Red feathered bird sitting takin' a bath in the puddle in the side of the road Lonely girl walks by sitting there thinking of her heavy load

well,just reading all these posts and realizing I did my own NC! I didn't think i would cuz my ex-'s Birthday was right around Thanksgiving, but i didn't send a card. I saw him several months ago, and he couldn't have been more unfriendly... Opened the door like a crack. This was after agreeing to meet me in town late on Saturday night, we had some drinks, then he came over to my place, we seemed to be getting along fine. Even wanted to sleep in the same bed with me... and there WAS heavy petting on his part.. The next day, same scenario (I DO believe I was dating Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde)... got furious cuz I wanted to get intimate with HIM..i.e. got sort of "affectionate" with him when we first woke up....what is good for the goose, obviously wasn't good for the gander in this guy's book!! And ran out of the house furious that I would want mess around with HIM.. It was OK, though, for him to mess around with ME though?!? Now mind you, we were lovers previously... So. it wasn't like I was coming onto a guy who I had never had sex with before. We had sex several times.. so for him to act all indignant cuz I was playing with him seems rather odd, doesn't it? He did tell me he couldn't funtion sexually the nite before cuz he had too much to drink... I sure didn't think he'd had the same problem next morning..but he was full of it so many times. anyway.. it ended up he gave me strep, cuz we were sharing a glass of wine and it just so happened he was sick.. I left several notes on his car cuz I felt he should go to the doctor and get some medicine.. and also, cuz I ended up paying like $80 to get myself better. It came at at time when I had NO money, so to entertain him cost me $80!! I just asked him politely in the note to pay me back, at least in part for the medicine since i hadn't found much work during the summer and needed it for my bills, really badly. Did he respond? Nope.. he was never very gentlemanly that way... So.. finally I went up to his house... He used to ask me why I would just put notes on his car instead of coming to his door... Well... probably cuz of his Mr. Hyde syndrome.. He could be the most rudest and hateful people when he wanted.. that was really WHY! And I was so tired of being treated so disrespectfully and getting my feelings hurt. So... he always wanted me to come to the door instead he would tell me on the phone.. I went up there.. Did i get treated politely? No way.. he just opened the door a crack, screamed out it.. "WHAT?????" And then Insisted that "Just leave him be, please"....Like i was some evil stalker or something! I never bothered him, or came by his place before!! I sent him a note or two, asking him if he couldn't at least pay me back for the medicine, he NEVER even bothered to look at what needed fixing at my place..which was WHY I invited him in the 1st place! Give me a break....if you didn't want to have anything to do with me.. why agree to meet me in the first place?!?! And he was supposed to help me out with some repair thing at my place I wasn't able to do myself..It was pretty important. If it didn't get fixed, there was definitely a possibility of a fire danger. At least he said he was going to help me.... Anyway.. I'm glad i never bothered to write him or anything.. I bet he's wondering what has happened to me.. cuz if someone really didn't want anything to do with you, they simply wouldn't even talk to you period. The funny thing is.. he was really ticked off, he had to wait like an hour, in some pub for me to appear that evening we met up! Like it was okay, to put ME off, just not okay to make HIM wait! I am just trying to get my self-esteem back together.. cuz honestly, lately, i have been doing some reading and his personality traits were rather frightening.. Has anyone read this book, "Why Does He do That?" It is all about controlling and emotionally and physically abusive men. I read a few chapters and skimmed through most of the book, and he definitely fell into one of the categories. I really did care about this guy, but I'm just afraid he had too many issues for me to handle, honestly.