Loki71

The tears running down my face like rain from the sky. No where to hide only leaving the pain hidden inside. Love so full of joy and pain, rain to wash away the hurt. Tears left as a mask for joy yet the pain hidden deeper inside. Many mistakes to many to count, myself to blame for the pain. I loved her so much and that was more than she could take. Left alone in my tears I sit, alone after years of content. She tried hard to love, she tried hard to forgive but my hurt I deserve. Like a jail I sit in my tears left to be miserable left to hurt. I cry every day, unlike the rain the tears never go away. My life I would give, my soul I would sell for my heart to be whole, for my heart to heal. I love her so and forever will but now I sit alone in my hell.

Peace by peace you took my heart Hour by hour you took my soul Day by day you drove me away I fought and fought to keep sane Never wanting to be this way Never wanting you to know how I hurt Month by month I hide away No one knowing how I felt No one caring if I was healed I would have died for you I would have given my life for you No one will ever know the true way I felt No one will ever fill the hole Now the day has come My heart no more The hole closed shut Filled with stone I no longer care You dreams and desire filled My pain now your joy What I held on to no longer in my hands

Fade to black Whiskey and pills No way back Lost will, forever still World in past Blood spilled My life I have killed Kids laugh and cry Love destroyed never to return Suicide in my eyes So many ways So many reasons Life faded away Heart torn and betrayed No more tears no more laughs Joy and misery combined Another world left behind God tried to take me once Now I want to go Me he no longer wants

Here I sit again Broken and torn Like a rag doll Thrown aside Ripped from the world Torn at the seems No one to care No one to see I lay here on my shelf Wishing I could play Looking around All the joy I see Laughing and giggles None for me Crying no longer helps Pray for dying But no response Blackness all I am allowed My only world is in this room Alone I lay here Torn and ripped Tossed aside by god And left to sit I can only hope For a day to come Where fire my world Is consumed

Nope I just wrote it.

Day by day you drove me away I fought and fought to keep sane Never wanting to be this way Never wanting you to know how I hurt Month by month I hide away No one knowing how I felt No one caring if I was healed I would have died for you I would have given my life for you No one will ever know the true way I felt No one will ever fill the hole Now the day has come My heart no more The hole closed shut Filled with stone I no longer care You dreams and desire filled My pain now your joy What I held on to no longer in my hands Good bye for ever Everything now dead.

Very sad and pretty R2R

Short, sweet and to the point I like it very much.

In a dream I awoke to see you there before me Your beauty brighter than anything ever seen My heart full of love, Joy in my eyes Smiles all a glow, no one would have known Clouds rumble over head Wind begins to whirl Lighting crashes thunder booms I reach for your hand I scream your name No answer no hand to grab Whipped away in the wind Forever gone forever lost My dream now a nightmare Only darkness where your smile shinned Lost and cold my soul wonders Forever to be alone, forever heart turned to stone The dream now a nightmare Sweat running down my face Tears of blood to cover the pain I awake not from this dream But I awake to this nightmare

The tears running down my face Like rain from the sky Tears no where to hide Only leaving the pain hidden inside Love so full of joy and pain Rain to wash away the hurt Tears left as a mask for joy The pain hidden deeper inside Many mistakes to many to count Myself to blame for the pain I loved her to much and that was more than She could take Left alone in my tears I sit Alone after years of content She tried hard to love She tried hard to forgive But my hurt I deserve Like a jail I sit in my tears Left to be miserable left to hurt I cry every night, I cry every day Unlike the rain the tears never go away My life I would give, My soul I would sell For my heart to be whole, for my heart to heal I love her so and for ever will But for now I sit Alone in my hell

That i so very cute.She is learning to be so creative.

Oh I am. In fact I already have someone new (sort of) I just am trying to make everyone happy and in the process it's making me depressed and sad etc. I just want to give up sometimes and say to hell with everyone and just go jump in front of a train or while driving home just make that sudden sharp turn into the freeway wall.

Thanks but I really don't have anything to offer anyone. Just a few words that make people feel sad.

Yeah I just wrote it a few minutes ago.

In my darkest hour I sit and wallow Never knowing who I am or who I was Alone is how I was meant to be In my darkest hour I hurt and cry Never knowing if I should live or die Alone I sit no one to hold In my darkest hour I breathe and sigh Never knowing why Alone I wonder if this is my life In my darkest hour I lay awake never to sleep Never knowing why I lived Alone I eat and drink In my darkest hour I sit and sulk Always to live with my broken heart Alone I sit and write this. In my darkest hour I wish I could die Never knowing my own life Alone I sit and cry