Day 2
Yesterday for some odd reason, was a bit of a bad day.
My mind thinks of him everyday, but yesterday I imagined all the bad senerios.
Whether he is or is not with someone, I imagined it.
I imagined him with some of the hotters girls that we mutually know.
I imagined him married and him cheating on the wife with me.
I lost my mind yesterday.
Though it isnt, I just kept imagining the worst possible senerios.
I wanted to feel all the pain I can possibly feel so I couldnt feel anymore pain.
Duno if it;ll work, but i hurted myself yesterday.
Day 3
Today was a bit better.
I was busy.
I had a mutaul friend of both of ours who didnt like us both together come up to me and act friendly.
It felt weird because I thought she wanted soemthing out of me.
I gave nothign and kept it short...I didnt want to hear anything to upset my mood.
I also ran into another friend, she asked about him.
Wether she knew we dated or broken up, I dont know
whether she tested me, i dont know
I simply answered her I dont know.
I think I did well and tried HARD to not focus on it and let it affect me.
I still think of him everyday but Im trying to think of the good and bad with sense and try not to let it affect as before.
I see our starbucks, I rememebr the memory and try not to dwell on it.
Im trying .. I really am.
Im proud of you minigirl!!
Thanks minigirl...