hopeless66

So I am on day 27 NC... Kinda wanted to call today... I thought she called a couple days ago, since i got a few calls in a row from a blocked number, so stupidly I blocked mine and called hers back a few hours later... Just hung up after about 5 seconds because it was stupid, I wasn't gonna talk to her if she picked up... She changed her ringer song to a depressing song which made me worry about her a little... Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin.. Its probebly nothing, but I still get bothered.. Here's my thoughts in another post

I never called her back on day 10 of NC. It was a trap, she was calling about a jacket she left behind that she NEVER wore in the 4 years she had it. I found out because, first she called my best friends wife(they were best friends), then she called my roomate.... * * * was that...well now I am on day 17 NC..... Hard today because I just got a HUGE job that I always thought would make us both happy...(I got a gig doing the voice of one of the main characters in a cartoon) weird how crappy somethings get, all the positives that come out at the same time....

Day 10 and she called today... I didn't answer and she left a messege saying, "Hey its me, I had a couple questions to ask you and I wanted to see how you are doing. Call me back when you get this, I had a couple questions for you. This is my new number. Talk to you soon... Bye.." I don't call back right?

I am going on 8 days NC. She called drunk 8 days ago to let me know she missed me and still loved me and wanted to hear my voice. That our break up wasn't easy on her and she has been listening to "our" songs and reading my letters. Doin fine with the NC thing...Don't have the urge to call....Just a little bugged that she hasn't tried to call me again...