It's hard for me to hate you after all you've done. Anyone would hate you, and should hate you. But why do I always refuse to see the bad in you, and only see the things I love. To you, I'm just another girl that has feelings for you. And you say you still have feelings for me too, but the thing is, it's not only me you have feelings for. I will never understand how you can love more than one girl. And I've tortured myself over and over again trying to figure out what I did wrong and how I can fix it. I'm really done with that now. I really want to move on, I really NEED to move on. I'm so tired of missing you. I want to feel loved again. I want to feel special. I think maybe I find it so hard to see your negative side because I feel really bad that life has been so hard for you. But I can't keep trying to make you feel good at the expense of my happiness. You really made me believe I was all you ever wanted. I guess that's why it's been so hard to let go of you because I always hoped that you'd come back to me since I thought I was so special to you. I really love you. And I'm so torn that it wasn't enough for you. I hope you wake up one day and realize I was the one for you, and no one else will love you like I do, and when that day comes, I'll be gone.